15/11/2006 Prayer Meeting...

Was in the prayer meeting just now. Prayed in the nursery... Although it is not the most condusive envt to pray but nevertheless as i opened up my heart to seek the Lord, His presence just filled me. I totally ignored the people ard me and focused on worshipping and seeking the face of God. He refreshed me and gave me strength for the week.

Havent been sleeping early.. Or well... think too stressed liao... My new job going to start... 2 assistants under my care... And the jobs seniors very zai one... So super stressed... But this stress is I give myself one... Cant help it... Haiz...

Nursery side also got more things to plan n do... Cos we are changing... To become more relevant... And build stronger bonds, more leaders, more ownership, less commitment problems... Hee... Having fun though still got a little stress... Cos wanna do things well...

Ken also give me stress... Haiz... Wanna help him more cos he having exams but sometimes just dun feel like moving... Cos so tired liao... need a lot of refreshin here man...

Time to seek the Lord again...

Why not updated for so long?

My siblings la... Everytime I come home, they're playing the comp... then cant blog using my laptop cos cant access... Had lots of things happening to me this period of time...

Just pledged to the building fund... This is so exciting, even though got to be more conscious abt purchases, but it helps to discipline me... Been giving to the building fund for the past few years since 2000, everytime, God just blesses me back... The last bf, I got into big 4... Really thank God for it...

This time round is the first time I'll giving as a real working adult. The amount I pledged really stretches my faith... Although the amount may not be a lot... But this is the most I've given thus far... And it's really a sacrifice... This time round very different... Not like in sch, can really save cos gt concession. Now muz take cabs to client's place, although claimable but still muz fork out the money first... Pray that I'll be able to get thru the month...

After cg last fri.. I went home to seek the Lord... God just impress upon my heart a few verses and He kept asking me questions...

What is your capacity? How do you gauge or rate your generosity level? You limit yourself if you think you cant do it or make it; you cant cos as a man thinks in his heart, so is he. Different amount, equal sacrifice. Is the amount you giving a sacrifice or are you just tipping? Only you know it in your heart!!! The bible says 'freely you have received, freely give'. 'Give and it will be given back to you. Good measure, pressed down shaken together and running over will be added to your bosom. For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you.'

God just kept asking me, do you believe that your returns will be based on the measure which you give? Then do you trust me that as you sow this measure of money, it will be multiplied back to you? Do you trust me? Am I a God who is limited?

I've been released...

I was booked on this job for last fri til this fri... Then I just went into the job and did wat I could as fast and accurately as I can... And God is good, got early released... So will be going back to office tml... Kind of miss those days where I can surf net and do wat I want... Heh...

Today was a exciting day. My mgr for the job came down for field review... So everyone quite stressed. I also... Cos I wanna clear finish the points fast and really try to help the team to finish asap. But the client not ready, couldnt give us the documents we asked for... So there's a limit to wat I can do and finish...

Yesterday, I asked my senior to let me go off early today and on friday cos today got bs and fri got cg... tha was mon... At 7pm yesterday, I went to 'hand up' some work and asked for permission to leave at 730pm... he allowed me to go and asked wat time i had to go on wed and fri, 730? I said... 'Er... No... at 6pm...' He was like wa... Hmmmm.... Wat reaction huh? But I decided to trust God... Cos it's for His sake that I'm leaving early... Cos I wanna seek Him... So I just left to give BS at 730...

Today I managed to finish my stuff at 4pm, cos got some issues that my snr says he'll resolve himself... So I just need to document what I know and pass everything back to him... Then helped him a bit here and there... At 540, he gave me a new thing to work on... I was like God!!! You got to help me!!! I need to leave at 6pm in order to travel down... Wanted to go by public transport to suntec for bs.... So need at least an hour to travel down... But i only managed to finish the document at like 620... I passed it back to him and told him i really need to leave...

He was alright with it and let me go, I packed my stuff and sped walked out of the client's place with my bag, laptop bag and jacket. I was praying all the way out to the gate. Thank God it stopped raining liao... Then when I reached the gate, I was like almost crying out... God, you got to send the cab now. I cant make the rest of the class wait for me... Help!!!

And God is just so good... He let me see 2 cabs... One hired - a normal cab... And one empty one!!! A mercedes cab!!! Heh... The driver stopped... I hurriedly got on the cab and told the driver my destination. Then I asked, wat time can reach huh? I told him I got to reach the office by 7pm... He assured me it was possible... I enjoyed the ride... The radio played a song... God is watching you from a distance... I was like wa... God I know you're always there for me, thank you God... Tears started to well in my eyes... Mercs cabs rides are more smooth, not so jerky and i managed to rest... In the midst of praying that there's no jam... Managed to read my bs notes b4 i went for the class too...

I reached the office at 5 min to 7pm... Even had time to go toilet b4 the class... Heh... God is just so good... Hee....

A fruitful day...

Today woke up realising my siblings were not going to school... So i washed up and left home while my bro played the comp... And my sis was still in bed... Well well... I had my those days too... Hee....

Reached office at 850... Then helped my fren get some stuff, requisited some stationery n set off for client's place... Reached at 10am... Still to do one section; one leadsheet... Like copied last year's work... But got some new accounts... So need to document the work myself... Then went for lunch at the nearby canteen...

Came back continued to work on the leadsheet.. Went up to find the client and talked to them for the first time in the day.. At near 2pm... Not very helpful cos they all busy with the month end closing... But thank God, I managed to find the schedules that I need... Made copies... Then worked with the documents I had obtained... Then need to vouch the invoices and payments vouchers... So wrote a list for the client...

And guess wat? When I asked her to show me where to get the documents, she asked me which are the ones I need... Then she took the list and extracted out all the documents I needed for me!!! Wow!!! What favour... At the end of the day, I managed to complete most of my work... Left 7 invoices to vouch... Completed the leadsheet and the manual workpapers...

On my side, my other colleague was screaming... Cos she cant get the schedule she needs... The client keeps giving her stuff that was not wat she asked for... When she went to find the payment voucher herself to vouch, she couldnt find even one after searching for 2 hours!!! I really really thank God for favour...

I passed the section to my AIC for review at near 6pm... He gave me a new section to work on... Wow!!! This one is not as easy... But I'm all geared up and ready to start work... Here I come... Ermz... Not now now... But looking forward to my A11 days... Heee.... The sections more interesting... Not all vouching only... Heh... May tml be another frutiful day too...

Update...

I had a long long long holiday after Bruce n Shaun's wedding... Dun feel like working... Hahaha... Then with all the festivals around, holiday here n there... So took quite a lot of toil and leave... Heh... It's time to settle down and get back to work... Just when I thought of doing that... I was hit with gastric flu... Haiz...

Been quite busy since Sun... Went for duty then blood donation then dinner with Ken's family at AV then coffee at west coast McCafe... Then Mon went back to work... Thought going down client's place, who knows client not ready... So I took half day toil and went out with Ken... Hehe... He's supposed to be studyin n I was supposed to be working... Oh well... hehe... Went to catch a movie... Haiz... So much for all the nominations that it got... Quite a boring show... Hahaha.... Went ate lots of stuff in bet also... Then Ken went for tuition...

Ken wanted to go school early on tues to revise his work... I told him I'll sleep in... But I was planning to go with him liao la... But who knows when I woke up, I was overwhelmed with pangs of nausea... I ran to the toilet and vomitted... Then diahorrea... That was at 7am!!! By 930, I had vomitted 3 times and diahorrea twice... I laid down on the toilet floor and slept cos I didnt wanna run again... Aft a while I managed to get up and struggled to pour myself a glass of hot water...

I drank... And within half an hr, I was back in the toilet, vomitting... Haiz... By 1pm, I had vomitted like 7 times and had diahorrea 5 times... My parents were working and my siblings were entertaining themselves with the computer and the tv... Haiz... At the same time, I was having gastric pains... Thank God by afternoon all these stopped... I just slept n slept... Ken bought porridge for me and I ate like a third of it then went back to sleep... He later left for tuition... Thanks dear... Sorry for the trouble... Made u couldnt study...

Mom came back at 5+ and gave me medicine... Had fever too... Then later finished most of the porridge Ken bought... then slept ad slept...

On wed... supposed to go work but my gastric pains were still there... I decided to see a doc n get mc... Hehe... I know I'm supposed to be working... But health more impt rite? So see doc then came back... And slept... and slept... Hehe...

Went for BS at nite then met up with Yuhao n Alice... Think now quite alright liao...

Not having as much diahorrea and no vomitting liao... But still having pangs of pains... I'll just lay hands and pray that it goes away... Especially with my medicine running out liao... And I'm supposed to be working... Heh... Went loyang for despatch just now... Think I'm quite alright liao... Hahaha... Shld be going Ang Mo Kio tml... Need to turn in liao... Will update again...

Looking forward to the outreach this sat at expo... Think will be fun... Kekeke... Who wanna join Huiqin's team??? Sure win one... Heh... Hmmmm.... We'll see... Eh... Can I be excused from eating? Hahaa....

Genesis 50 (Part 2)

Vs 19-20 --> But Joseph replied, “Don’t be afraid of me. Am I God, that I can punish you? You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.

It's really amazing how God's ways are higher than our ways. A normal person rejected by his own family, gone thru all the kinds of hardship that Joseph went thru will grab this chance to revenge what his bros had done to him when he was younger. But Joseph saw things in a different light. He has seen how God began to set up the situtation so that the whole country will be saved thru him.

And Joseph has such a big heart... He let go off his past hurts and accepted, loved his brothers... Treated them the best he can... Where to find such people nowadays?!?!?!

God, I also wanna have a big heart like Joseph... Help me to forgive and forget... Help me to love like how you love... Take away the past hurts, give me my Manasseh and Ephraim...

Genesis 50 (Part 1)

In verse 11 --> The local residents, the Canaanites, watched them... Then they renamed that place Abel-mizraim, for they said, "This is a place of deep mourning for these Egyptians".

Abel-mizraim means "mourning of the Egyptians".

Here we see that Jacob, Joseph's dad has just passed away. Joseph went back to Canaan to bury his dad, together with his household, his brothers and their households; accompanied by 'all of Pharoah's officials, all the senior members of Pharoah's household, and all the senior officers of Egypt'. When Joseph lost his dad, all those people felt that they also lost someone dear to them that they mourn together with Joseph. This is the kind of influence Joseph has!

Joseph was not born an Egyptian but he had so much influence over the Egyptians that they would follow him wherever he goes. Even to an unknown land for them, they were willing to go for him. This made me think... How many of us are influencers in our marketplace? In the place where we spend most of out time. The place where we interact the most with the people around us. The place which we are supposed to transform. And the sad thing is, some of us cant even influence one person! Not even this one closest to us!!! Then how can we be history makers and world shakers? Are we changing lives? Are we changing nations?

It's time to sit down and think and reflect. 2 more months before the year 2006 comes to an end... What have you done in the past 10 months? Have you released your fullest potential? Have you touched the lives of people God has placed into your hands? What have you done in this year to glorify God? Do you think God is pleased with you?

Pst always preaches 'You're born for such a time as this!' Do you really believe it? Who is the last soul you've saved? Where has the fire in you gone to? Are you no longer urgent and compassionate for souls? Do you still remember why Christ died??? It's time to get back to fire and end the year well...