Havent been having the best of the week... Although the week started quite well, managed to go for prayer meeting cos not stuck in office... But for the rest of the week, started to feel so so so stressed... Practically from every aspect of my life...
Today's cg was very different... More of us moving in the spirit than just receiving... It's high time to do that... The cg is getting unappreciative and taking things for granted... Like stagnanting... Except for a few... Haiz... Talk abt stepping out in faith to do something new. Trusting in God...
But somehow... It just didnt happen... Fear just overwhelmed me... So strongly that I felt so crippled. I havent felt this kind of fear in such a long time. Really dunno wat happened... So so weird feeling. When Ken talked abt God has not given you a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. I was just thinking, how come this verse didnt come to me earlier? And at that pt in time when I felt the fear... I really couldnt feel power, nor love nor have a sound mind. I just dun understand what happened...
Just feel so stressed and tired and far from God. Feel like just putting everything aside and really spend time seeking te Lord in the mountains... But how when the pile of work cant finish and there's no one who can help? How when you feel so tired and no more energy to think abt anything else? How??? I hope this passes over fast... Dun like this feeling... Yucks!
God showed me a verse... 1 Cor 14:12... It's time to meditate on it... It's time...
