2007...

2007 has started... It's time for a new blog, to start the brand new year... A new blog to accompany through the rest of the year with a new direction...

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Month of December

This month has been a slow moving but some things happened in this month that made me change my focus a little...

Starting off with a relaxing trip to Penang after Ken's exams. Was blessed with the trip. Think I didnt fork out a single cent at all... Heh... Thanks to Kelvin and my mom... Yeah, and really thank God cos I was pretty tied after all the taxis - reimbursement havent come in... Yep...

Then went for 2 whole weeks of training, quite boring and slack. Met up some old good buddies for dinner and movie... Also went gym... Think for the first time since I joined my co!!! Ermz... Hey... Dun look at me like that... At least I got started... Hahaha...

Yep... Then after training was xmas le... Went to get presents alone... Ken was having incamp training... So sad... Lugged the things home myself... So ke lian... Hahaha... But I did it!!! Yeah...

Then was the xmas services... Was prepared to go for all, go all out for the friends. Yeah, bring them in and let them experience the love of God... So on eve of xmas eve, went and attended svc 1 and 2... Went home after dinner and slept...

Then my mom woke me up at slightly before 6. And asked me wat I was planning to do that day. I said 'go church lo...' you muz understand, I slept pretty late the nite b4 and sleep was really precious. Then she asked if i can bring my dad to hospital. I was shocked. Still laying in bed... I asked her wat happened. She said my dad was in pain. And she has to go work cos it was Sun. Most crowded... Then she asked... "Can you dun go church?"

At that point in time, in my heart, I was thinking "Huh, but I really want to go". On the other hand, I know that my mom seldom ask me for help and she really had no choice le. I heard my dad vomiting in his room. My heart stirred. I asked God for guidance. I asked God to help me. I asked the Holy Spirit why muz this happen to me? I was really troubled... In the end, I went to hospital with my dad. I msged Ken to let him know I wont be able to make it for the morning service. And was prepared to pack my things and cabbed down to hospital. Then Ken replied ==> so he's up... I asked him to send my dad to hospital instead, can save some money and Ken can show his concern also...

I msged weemin to let her know I might not be able to make it back to serve cos dunno if my dad needs to be admitted. At the same time, I was updating Ken abt my dad and my mom also... I didnt want the cg to know so that it will not affect them. Think really no one knew that I wasnt ard during S3... Hahaha... Think only yan and Ken know from the cg...

After the doc checked my dad and everything settled, we went home by cab then on the way my dad was saying, if I need to go out, can go ahead. I really thank God for such an understanding dad... I made sure he was comfortably rested on his bed and listed a list of things to do for my siblings b4 I left for church... Managed to attend S4 and S5. Really by the grace of God...

On boxing day I decided to apply leave and stay home. My siblings were in school. My dad was in bad pain again. So bad that on xmas day he couldnt even get off his bed... I called Ken to come over and help me support my dad to the clinic for a jab. Supporting him and shielding him from the rain with the umbrella, we managed to bring him to the clinic and back.

These few days I saw my dad cry... I was really very troubled. Cos he has a very high tolerance for pain and this muz have hurt so badly. And there was nothing I could do. The painkillers didnt help much also... As xing called me to talk abt giving bs to the friends, I was not in the mood at all. I was thinking abt my family... I realised I havent been spending much time with them. Havent been giving a lot of myself to this family... I made a decision, 2007... I will spend more time with my family. Invest in them... For where my treasure is, there my heart will be also...

Today is 29th le... Going for thanksgiving cg later... Then tml going dim sum buffet... Then dinner with my engagement team's friends... Then Sun will be duty and then countdown at Ken's aunt's place and guess what? It will be 2007 le!!! WOW!!! Time really flies. In 2006, so many things happened... 1st mission trip... 1st time on the plane... So many couples got married... Hahahaha.... I wonder what 2007 will be full of.... 2007, here I come!!!

Thank God! Hallelujah!!!

Am going through training for these 2 wks. Today was the most eventful day. I was very sleepy today... Think cos of the rain, makes u wanna sleep... Then havent been sleeping a lot for the past few days... Even though I slept relatively early last nite but think it's nt enough to cover the lack of sleep the previous days... So I made coffee for myself during the break...

Then while drinking, and surfing the net... My notes fell to the ground. In shock I jerked upwards and I spilt my drink over the laptop and my pants... It also splashed onto siewling's white jacket... So sorry, gal... I didnt mean to one...

Immediately, I grabbed any tissue I could find to clean and dry my laptop... and tried to drain the coffee out... but it was still a little wet. My fren told me to bring to IT immediately so that they can service it... Like take out everything to dry and fix it back... So... I guai guai, brought it out to IT... The guy looked at it and asked me to fill up a form...

Later on when I went back wanting to collect, he told me need to write a report on how the coffee spill. And address to the boss for approval to change the keyboard cos sticky. I almost fainted... The BOSS!!! Had I knew need to go so high up I wouldnt have sent it in for servicing. Just use tissue to clean it... Haiz... I was like jialat jialat... The IT guy quite nice la, showed me a sample to follow... I was running in and out of the training room the whole day. Even as the facilitator was going thru the notes, I was switched off liao.... Thinking how to write the letter, or how to get back my laptop without going up to the boss. I couldnt take it any longer. I wanted so much to cry... But i know it wouldnt help the situation at all. I held back my tears... I lost my appeitite and didnt eat my lunch...

In my heart, I was praying very hard. God, let this thing pass without having to go up to the boss. Help me close this case. Give me favour with the IT ppl. They dun have to change my keyboard for me. I just want my laptop back. I kept praying and praying.

I managed to do up the letter just before the day ended and brought it to IT dept. The IT guy asked me to sign and take back my laptop... It was fixed... He said that this time round let me pass... No need to get approval from the boss. My prayers were really answered!!! I was so so so happy. And at the back of my head, I was praising God...

Then I went for nursery dinner for some of us... The food was nice... But dear wasnt able to go cos of reservice. But the dinner went well, so good la... But if dear were ard, then it would be the best day liao... Yeah!!!! Really thank God for today...

Jio me out!!!

This week has been passing so slowly for me... Everyday I'm like why nobody jio me out? I've already said that I'm free... Just cos my ah dear dear nt ard for me means I got no other life? No other friends? Haiz... Managed to chit chat with ppl on the phone for hours... But have been going out on my own... Like a loner like that... Also reaching out to friends.... Mostly thru sms cos that's how we'll communicate... Meet up for tea, meals dun really work for my friends... But anyway... Have been planning lots of things to do to keep myself busy...

Hehe... Like planning to go gym but ended up didnt go cos went xmas shopping instead... Also got worked out la... Kekeke... Deceiving myself? Hahahaha... Also went prayer meeting and bible study during the week. Feel so weird without Ken ard... Like no where to go other than the shopping malls... And home to the comp games... Where are my friends??? But thank God that my friend will be joining me tml at Pitstop... And I think xmas I've have friends too... I am not a loner!!! But do feel a little lonely now that Ken's in camp for these 2 weeks... And I having training... Can leave office early.... Haiz... Lonely but not loner... ...

I'm back!

Just came back from Penang... A well rested trip, shopped til we dead... Hahaha... We started shopping at 1330, and left the place ard 2030!!! All the 6 of us!!! Hahaha... Think the guys should be awarded prizes for efforts and for conquering shopping... Heh... I bought a soft toy... Hmmmm.... Should I say a small bolster?

This is the 2nd one I have after the taiwan emerge... The 1st one was a mickey mouse that the brothers shot down for me. This time it's a garfield small bolster... Hee... Ken bought it... We went back and activated every one to help find back that shop... Cos the shopping centre is so big and so messy that we couldnt find it the 2nd time round... So took some time... Bit really like it a lot, it's so cute... Thanks my ah dear dear...

Watched lots of movies too... On the bus, cos nothing else to do and didnt wanna read cos bad lighting.. So just watched tv.... hehe....

Counting my blessings...

Building fund season has began... And I've also started counting the blessings I've recieved... From this coming paid trip to penang, to the new skin top to the S$100 from my mom to spend on the trip... Think it's hundreds liao... And it's only the 1st month since I started to sow...

I cant wait to fufil my building fund!!! It's so exciting. I wonder how much God is going to bless me this time round.... Hmmmm.... Thirty fold? Sixty fold? Or hundred fold? Or even more? God is indeed good... And if my pay also increase... Heh... My God is a miracle working God... How can u not believe that there's a God???!!!

Call me k? I'll tell you more... Especially thru the drama on 23rd, 24th and 25th at expo... You'll understand it even without me telling... The greatest love story ever told on this earth...

I'm leaving soon

I'll be leaving for Penang on Wed nite... After BS... Think this is a good time to leave and relax, recharge and reflect... As the year comes to an end, it's time to evaluate myself... The things that I've done in this year... The ppl I've impacted in this year... The ppl I've touched...

And to start planning what I wanna do in the next year... Setting my career path too... To stay or to look for greener pastures... Lots of things to think abt... Lots... I got to organise my thoughts, my mind...

04/12/2006 Journeying...

I am on leave this whole week, so yesterday I went out and get stuff done... I went to find my mom at her workplace to tell her that my sis not going home for dinner then went down to vivocity to get movie tickets, then went to Caldecott to collect Ken's prize, then went back to vivo for movie and dinner, before heading home to catch the 10pm show... Hahaha... Went abt by bus and not train, so took quite a bit of time... Think from 1030am I left home and the movie was at 1540... So was travelling on bus all the way...

I took 30 and I passed by the place where my sec sch was... All the past memories filled my mind... I typed them in my phone... ...

"As the bus passes my ex-school compound. My mind flashed back of all the fond memories of this place. This was the place I first met Ken. We've always wanted to come back here to take our wedding photo. But I guess it'll never come to pass. As the bus passes the school field, images just flashed in my mind. This is the place where we threw javelin, threw shot put, whewe'll pass by when going to the swimming pool. Where Ken'll be running and playing soccer, where he will be giving commands to his scout juniors to do this and that... I cant help but smile... Then as the bus turns, I realised that it has been changed into another school... Commonwealth Sec Sch... The canteen is under renovation, dunno if the canteen vendors follow the school or the compund... Are they still around? But I felt so sad... All the past can only be remembered by memories and photos. The current physicak structure is no longer the same.

In a few more years' time, I guess it'll look and feel totally different. Even our JC has shifted place and taken over by my sec sch. It feels so weird... I dun think I'll go back to my JC or shld I say Sec Sch to take photos there... Think I can drop this idea... The feeling is no longer there... hahaha... My Pri sch also shifted place... To where Ken's pri sch was.. So weird feeling... Heh...

But... Maybe can still go Pandan Reservoir... Heh... Our 2.4km runs, and the walkathon.... Hahaha.... 40th anniversary of the school, Sec 1.... Think it was the only time I walked once round the whole reservoir... Hmmmm... And my tortoises....

But as physical structures give way to new ones, it's a sign that our country is progressing. And even in our own lives, we ought to do the same... We got to move on... Leave the things of the past behind and move forward. It's good to look back and reflect once in a while. But NOT to live in the past. We're still alive. And we're to make a difference in the world today. And this doesnt come about by dwelling in our past failures or successes, but by looking forward and work! So start moving!!!"

02/12/2006 Conviction

I went for service last Sat alone as I'll be serving on Sun. During the service, I could feel that Pst was preaching the best he could but the ppl were not as supportive. I did my best to support. And I felt the msg was so good.

On the way out, I happened to look up and realised that the seats of the sides were covered with black cloth as they were not filled. There were 3- 4 rows on both sides facing each other. I felt so grived.

The Holy Spirit was like telling me, you see these empty chairs? They could be filled, if you brought your friend. I really felt so convicted. You see Pst preaching his very best and even gave an altar call at the end. Although there are ppl saved, but what if these seats were filled up? More souls could have be saved in this service.

I went out and invited my friends, for xmas service and for this coming week's service. So far gt one friend coming this sun. I'll keep asking... As Pst does his best to preach, to minster; as the angels busy moving up and down the ladder at expo; I will do my part, I will keep inviting, I will keep sowing... I will exalt the name of the Lord in my life...

Harvest Times... I'm so blessed...

Was just wondering how many people realised how bless we are? Was holding onto Harvest Times and reading through the articles. These articles are written by top pastors in this generation. And inspirational articles about these people's lives who have left a legacy in this time. And the best thing is we get this magazine for free!!! Even though it's free, the quality of this magazine is not just like a cheap newspaper. But it's printed on glossy paper. And the cover is not smooth but has indents. The layout of the magazine is professionally designed. The graphics have been carefully selected to assist the reader to understand the article better.

As I was reading the first article written by Pst Kong. I was so in awe by the magazine and the message. It really makes me want to read on and know more and be inspired by people, heros of faith. Not just bible characters. But pastors, reverends whom we've heard in our church... Their life story. Their walk of faith... I've always liked reading biographies and reading lives about men and women of faith just spurs me to wanna become more like them!

It's time to reflect... Where's your copy of Harvest Times? What abt the last copy? And the last one? Or even the 1st one which you receive when you came to church? This is a top class magazine and you're so blessed to have it for free. What have you done with it? Have you read the whole magazine already? Are you hungry for more of God in your life? Think abt it... ...

Reflecting time....

Think it's really time to sit down and reflect and evaluate myself... As the year draws to a close... I pray that I can end this year well. I wanna be able to accomplish the things which God has placed within my care... I wanna do well in the marketplace as well. Even though it may not be easy... I wanna increase my capacity. I wanna be more sensitive. I wanna be more open and quick to change. I wanna have more faith. I wanna be able to handle stress better. I wanna know God better. I wanna be more sensitive to the Holy Spirit. I wanna have more gifts of the Spirit. I wanna be wealthy. I wanna be in good health. I wanna be happy. I wanna be filled with joy that can be spreaded to the ppl ard me. I wanna be able to sleep little but remain so sharp and alert and awake. I wanna complain less. I wanna be the person God has created me to me... I wanna... I wanna... I wanna... ... ...

Worship...

During worship in cg... I felt so like God was just discipling me... So gentle but it was like a 2-edged sword... Just felt so so so humbled by it...

Reminded that it's Him who exalts me... Telling me not to be puffed up... He is my strength... This season of time, not the easiest time to go thru. The burden will not be lighten... But at the end of the day, I'll become stronger, my capacity will increase.

I told God, I dun ask for the burden to be lighten, but I pray for stronger shoulders... To go thru all this. I pray that I wont give up. Even when chastening comes, I pray that I'll be so so so open and quick to change. I may learn things fast but I pray that I'll replace my bad habits fast too...

I need more of God in my life each day as the workload and the burden gets heavier... I want to increase my capacity. I wanna increase my patience, my longsuffering, my kindness, my understanding of things... I wanna be more and more like God.... God, show me the way... lead me on... you're the lamp unto my path, light unto my feet... God you're my almighty God.. You're for me... You're with me... thru it all... I need you...

What a week...

Havent been having the best of the week... Although the week started quite well, managed to go for prayer meeting cos not stuck in office... But for the rest of the week, started to feel so so so stressed... Practically from every aspect of my life...

Today's cg was very different... More of us moving in the spirit than just receiving... It's high time to do that... The cg is getting unappreciative and taking things for granted... Like stagnanting... Except for a few... Haiz... Talk abt stepping out in faith to do something new. Trusting in God...

But somehow... It just didnt happen... Fear just overwhelmed me... So strongly that I felt so crippled. I havent felt this kind of fear in such a long time. Really dunno wat happened... So so weird feeling. When Ken talked abt God has not given you a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. I was just thinking, how come this verse didnt come to me earlier? And at that pt in time when I felt the fear... I really couldnt feel power, nor love nor have a sound mind. I just dun understand what happened...

Just feel so stressed and tired and far from God. Feel like just putting everything aside and really spend time seeking te Lord in the mountains... But how when the pile of work cant finish and there's no one who can help? How when you feel so tired and no more energy to think abt anything else? How??? I hope this passes over fast... Dun like this feeling... Yucks!

God showed me a verse... 1 Cor 14:12... It's time to meditate on it... It's time...

15/11/2006 Prayer Meeting...

Was in the prayer meeting just now. Prayed in the nursery... Although it is not the most condusive envt to pray but nevertheless as i opened up my heart to seek the Lord, His presence just filled me. I totally ignored the people ard me and focused on worshipping and seeking the face of God. He refreshed me and gave me strength for the week.

Havent been sleeping early.. Or well... think too stressed liao... My new job going to start... 2 assistants under my care... And the jobs seniors very zai one... So super stressed... But this stress is I give myself one... Cant help it... Haiz...

Nursery side also got more things to plan n do... Cos we are changing... To become more relevant... And build stronger bonds, more leaders, more ownership, less commitment problems... Hee... Having fun though still got a little stress... Cos wanna do things well...

Ken also give me stress... Haiz... Wanna help him more cos he having exams but sometimes just dun feel like moving... Cos so tired liao... need a lot of refreshin here man...

Time to seek the Lord again...

Why not updated for so long?

My siblings la... Everytime I come home, they're playing the comp... then cant blog using my laptop cos cant access... Had lots of things happening to me this period of time...

Just pledged to the building fund... This is so exciting, even though got to be more conscious abt purchases, but it helps to discipline me... Been giving to the building fund for the past few years since 2000, everytime, God just blesses me back... The last bf, I got into big 4... Really thank God for it...

This time round is the first time I'll giving as a real working adult. The amount I pledged really stretches my faith... Although the amount may not be a lot... But this is the most I've given thus far... And it's really a sacrifice... This time round very different... Not like in sch, can really save cos gt concession. Now muz take cabs to client's place, although claimable but still muz fork out the money first... Pray that I'll be able to get thru the month...

After cg last fri.. I went home to seek the Lord... God just impress upon my heart a few verses and He kept asking me questions...

What is your capacity? How do you gauge or rate your generosity level? You limit yourself if you think you cant do it or make it; you cant cos as a man thinks in his heart, so is he. Different amount, equal sacrifice. Is the amount you giving a sacrifice or are you just tipping? Only you know it in your heart!!! The bible says 'freely you have received, freely give'. 'Give and it will be given back to you. Good measure, pressed down shaken together and running over will be added to your bosom. For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you.'

God just kept asking me, do you believe that your returns will be based on the measure which you give? Then do you trust me that as you sow this measure of money, it will be multiplied back to you? Do you trust me? Am I a God who is limited?

I've been released...

I was booked on this job for last fri til this fri... Then I just went into the job and did wat I could as fast and accurately as I can... And God is good, got early released... So will be going back to office tml... Kind of miss those days where I can surf net and do wat I want... Heh...

Today was a exciting day. My mgr for the job came down for field review... So everyone quite stressed. I also... Cos I wanna clear finish the points fast and really try to help the team to finish asap. But the client not ready, couldnt give us the documents we asked for... So there's a limit to wat I can do and finish...

Yesterday, I asked my senior to let me go off early today and on friday cos today got bs and fri got cg... tha was mon... At 7pm yesterday, I went to 'hand up' some work and asked for permission to leave at 730pm... he allowed me to go and asked wat time i had to go on wed and fri, 730? I said... 'Er... No... at 6pm...' He was like wa... Hmmmm.... Wat reaction huh? But I decided to trust God... Cos it's for His sake that I'm leaving early... Cos I wanna seek Him... So I just left to give BS at 730...

Today I managed to finish my stuff at 4pm, cos got some issues that my snr says he'll resolve himself... So I just need to document what I know and pass everything back to him... Then helped him a bit here and there... At 540, he gave me a new thing to work on... I was like God!!! You got to help me!!! I need to leave at 6pm in order to travel down... Wanted to go by public transport to suntec for bs.... So need at least an hour to travel down... But i only managed to finish the document at like 620... I passed it back to him and told him i really need to leave...

He was alright with it and let me go, I packed my stuff and sped walked out of the client's place with my bag, laptop bag and jacket. I was praying all the way out to the gate. Thank God it stopped raining liao... Then when I reached the gate, I was like almost crying out... God, you got to send the cab now. I cant make the rest of the class wait for me... Help!!!

And God is just so good... He let me see 2 cabs... One hired - a normal cab... And one empty one!!! A mercedes cab!!! Heh... The driver stopped... I hurriedly got on the cab and told the driver my destination. Then I asked, wat time can reach huh? I told him I got to reach the office by 7pm... He assured me it was possible... I enjoyed the ride... The radio played a song... God is watching you from a distance... I was like wa... God I know you're always there for me, thank you God... Tears started to well in my eyes... Mercs cabs rides are more smooth, not so jerky and i managed to rest... In the midst of praying that there's no jam... Managed to read my bs notes b4 i went for the class too...

I reached the office at 5 min to 7pm... Even had time to go toilet b4 the class... Heh... God is just so good... Hee....

A fruitful day...

Today woke up realising my siblings were not going to school... So i washed up and left home while my bro played the comp... And my sis was still in bed... Well well... I had my those days too... Hee....

Reached office at 850... Then helped my fren get some stuff, requisited some stationery n set off for client's place... Reached at 10am... Still to do one section; one leadsheet... Like copied last year's work... But got some new accounts... So need to document the work myself... Then went for lunch at the nearby canteen...

Came back continued to work on the leadsheet.. Went up to find the client and talked to them for the first time in the day.. At near 2pm... Not very helpful cos they all busy with the month end closing... But thank God, I managed to find the schedules that I need... Made copies... Then worked with the documents I had obtained... Then need to vouch the invoices and payments vouchers... So wrote a list for the client...

And guess wat? When I asked her to show me where to get the documents, she asked me which are the ones I need... Then she took the list and extracted out all the documents I needed for me!!! Wow!!! What favour... At the end of the day, I managed to complete most of my work... Left 7 invoices to vouch... Completed the leadsheet and the manual workpapers...

On my side, my other colleague was screaming... Cos she cant get the schedule she needs... The client keeps giving her stuff that was not wat she asked for... When she went to find the payment voucher herself to vouch, she couldnt find even one after searching for 2 hours!!! I really really thank God for favour...

I passed the section to my AIC for review at near 6pm... He gave me a new section to work on... Wow!!! This one is not as easy... But I'm all geared up and ready to start work... Here I come... Ermz... Not now now... But looking forward to my A11 days... Heee.... The sections more interesting... Not all vouching only... Heh... May tml be another frutiful day too...

Update...

I had a long long long holiday after Bruce n Shaun's wedding... Dun feel like working... Hahaha... Then with all the festivals around, holiday here n there... So took quite a lot of toil and leave... Heh... It's time to settle down and get back to work... Just when I thought of doing that... I was hit with gastric flu... Haiz...

Been quite busy since Sun... Went for duty then blood donation then dinner with Ken's family at AV then coffee at west coast McCafe... Then Mon went back to work... Thought going down client's place, who knows client not ready... So I took half day toil and went out with Ken... Hehe... He's supposed to be studyin n I was supposed to be working... Oh well... hehe... Went to catch a movie... Haiz... So much for all the nominations that it got... Quite a boring show... Hahaha.... Went ate lots of stuff in bet also... Then Ken went for tuition...

Ken wanted to go school early on tues to revise his work... I told him I'll sleep in... But I was planning to go with him liao la... But who knows when I woke up, I was overwhelmed with pangs of nausea... I ran to the toilet and vomitted... Then diahorrea... That was at 7am!!! By 930, I had vomitted 3 times and diahorrea twice... I laid down on the toilet floor and slept cos I didnt wanna run again... Aft a while I managed to get up and struggled to pour myself a glass of hot water...

I drank... And within half an hr, I was back in the toilet, vomitting... Haiz... By 1pm, I had vomitted like 7 times and had diahorrea 5 times... My parents were working and my siblings were entertaining themselves with the computer and the tv... Haiz... At the same time, I was having gastric pains... Thank God by afternoon all these stopped... I just slept n slept... Ken bought porridge for me and I ate like a third of it then went back to sleep... He later left for tuition... Thanks dear... Sorry for the trouble... Made u couldnt study...

Mom came back at 5+ and gave me medicine... Had fever too... Then later finished most of the porridge Ken bought... then slept ad slept...

On wed... supposed to go work but my gastric pains were still there... I decided to see a doc n get mc... Hehe... I know I'm supposed to be working... But health more impt rite? So see doc then came back... And slept... and slept... Hehe...

Went for BS at nite then met up with Yuhao n Alice... Think now quite alright liao...

Not having as much diahorrea and no vomitting liao... But still having pangs of pains... I'll just lay hands and pray that it goes away... Especially with my medicine running out liao... And I'm supposed to be working... Heh... Went loyang for despatch just now... Think I'm quite alright liao... Hahaha... Shld be going Ang Mo Kio tml... Need to turn in liao... Will update again...

Looking forward to the outreach this sat at expo... Think will be fun... Kekeke... Who wanna join Huiqin's team??? Sure win one... Heh... Hmmmm.... We'll see... Eh... Can I be excused from eating? Hahaa....

Genesis 50 (Part 2)

Vs 19-20 --> But Joseph replied, “Don’t be afraid of me. Am I God, that I can punish you? You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.

It's really amazing how God's ways are higher than our ways. A normal person rejected by his own family, gone thru all the kinds of hardship that Joseph went thru will grab this chance to revenge what his bros had done to him when he was younger. But Joseph saw things in a different light. He has seen how God began to set up the situtation so that the whole country will be saved thru him.

And Joseph has such a big heart... He let go off his past hurts and accepted, loved his brothers... Treated them the best he can... Where to find such people nowadays?!?!?!

God, I also wanna have a big heart like Joseph... Help me to forgive and forget... Help me to love like how you love... Take away the past hurts, give me my Manasseh and Ephraim...

Genesis 50 (Part 1)

In verse 11 --> The local residents, the Canaanites, watched them... Then they renamed that place Abel-mizraim, for they said, "This is a place of deep mourning for these Egyptians".

Abel-mizraim means "mourning of the Egyptians".

Here we see that Jacob, Joseph's dad has just passed away. Joseph went back to Canaan to bury his dad, together with his household, his brothers and their households; accompanied by 'all of Pharoah's officials, all the senior members of Pharoah's household, and all the senior officers of Egypt'. When Joseph lost his dad, all those people felt that they also lost someone dear to them that they mourn together with Joseph. This is the kind of influence Joseph has!

Joseph was not born an Egyptian but he had so much influence over the Egyptians that they would follow him wherever he goes. Even to an unknown land for them, they were willing to go for him. This made me think... How many of us are influencers in our marketplace? In the place where we spend most of out time. The place where we interact the most with the people around us. The place which we are supposed to transform. And the sad thing is, some of us cant even influence one person! Not even this one closest to us!!! Then how can we be history makers and world shakers? Are we changing lives? Are we changing nations?

It's time to sit down and think and reflect. 2 more months before the year 2006 comes to an end... What have you done in the past 10 months? Have you released your fullest potential? Have you touched the lives of people God has placed into your hands? What have you done in this year to glorify God? Do you think God is pleased with you?

Pst always preaches 'You're born for such a time as this!' Do you really believe it? Who is the last soul you've saved? Where has the fire in you gone to? Are you no longer urgent and compassionate for souls? Do you still remember why Christ died??? It's time to get back to fire and end the year well...