Month of December

This month has been a slow moving but some things happened in this month that made me change my focus a little...

Starting off with a relaxing trip to Penang after Ken's exams. Was blessed with the trip. Think I didnt fork out a single cent at all... Heh... Thanks to Kelvin and my mom... Yeah, and really thank God cos I was pretty tied after all the taxis - reimbursement havent come in... Yep...

Then went for 2 whole weeks of training, quite boring and slack. Met up some old good buddies for dinner and movie... Also went gym... Think for the first time since I joined my co!!! Ermz... Hey... Dun look at me like that... At least I got started... Hahaha...

Yep... Then after training was xmas le... Went to get presents alone... Ken was having incamp training... So sad... Lugged the things home myself... So ke lian... Hahaha... But I did it!!! Yeah...

Then was the xmas services... Was prepared to go for all, go all out for the friends. Yeah, bring them in and let them experience the love of God... So on eve of xmas eve, went and attended svc 1 and 2... Went home after dinner and slept...

Then my mom woke me up at slightly before 6. And asked me wat I was planning to do that day. I said 'go church lo...' you muz understand, I slept pretty late the nite b4 and sleep was really precious. Then she asked if i can bring my dad to hospital. I was shocked. Still laying in bed... I asked her wat happened. She said my dad was in pain. And she has to go work cos it was Sun. Most crowded... Then she asked... "Can you dun go church?"

At that point in time, in my heart, I was thinking "Huh, but I really want to go". On the other hand, I know that my mom seldom ask me for help and she really had no choice le. I heard my dad vomiting in his room. My heart stirred. I asked God for guidance. I asked God to help me. I asked the Holy Spirit why muz this happen to me? I was really troubled... In the end, I went to hospital with my dad. I msged Ken to let him know I wont be able to make it for the morning service. And was prepared to pack my things and cabbed down to hospital. Then Ken replied ==> so he's up... I asked him to send my dad to hospital instead, can save some money and Ken can show his concern also...

I msged weemin to let her know I might not be able to make it back to serve cos dunno if my dad needs to be admitted. At the same time, I was updating Ken abt my dad and my mom also... I didnt want the cg to know so that it will not affect them. Think really no one knew that I wasnt ard during S3... Hahaha... Think only yan and Ken know from the cg...

After the doc checked my dad and everything settled, we went home by cab then on the way my dad was saying, if I need to go out, can go ahead. I really thank God for such an understanding dad... I made sure he was comfortably rested on his bed and listed a list of things to do for my siblings b4 I left for church... Managed to attend S4 and S5. Really by the grace of God...

On boxing day I decided to apply leave and stay home. My siblings were in school. My dad was in bad pain again. So bad that on xmas day he couldnt even get off his bed... I called Ken to come over and help me support my dad to the clinic for a jab. Supporting him and shielding him from the rain with the umbrella, we managed to bring him to the clinic and back.

These few days I saw my dad cry... I was really very troubled. Cos he has a very high tolerance for pain and this muz have hurt so badly. And there was nothing I could do. The painkillers didnt help much also... As xing called me to talk abt giving bs to the friends, I was not in the mood at all. I was thinking abt my family... I realised I havent been spending much time with them. Havent been giving a lot of myself to this family... I made a decision, 2007... I will spend more time with my family. Invest in them... For where my treasure is, there my heart will be also...

Today is 29th le... Going for thanksgiving cg later... Then tml going dim sum buffet... Then dinner with my engagement team's friends... Then Sun will be duty and then countdown at Ken's aunt's place and guess what? It will be 2007 le!!! WOW!!! Time really flies. In 2006, so many things happened... 1st mission trip... 1st time on the plane... So many couples got married... Hahahaha.... I wonder what 2007 will be full of.... 2007, here I come!!!

Thank God! Hallelujah!!!

Am going through training for these 2 wks. Today was the most eventful day. I was very sleepy today... Think cos of the rain, makes u wanna sleep... Then havent been sleeping a lot for the past few days... Even though I slept relatively early last nite but think it's nt enough to cover the lack of sleep the previous days... So I made coffee for myself during the break...

Then while drinking, and surfing the net... My notes fell to the ground. In shock I jerked upwards and I spilt my drink over the laptop and my pants... It also splashed onto siewling's white jacket... So sorry, gal... I didnt mean to one...

Immediately, I grabbed any tissue I could find to clean and dry my laptop... and tried to drain the coffee out... but it was still a little wet. My fren told me to bring to IT immediately so that they can service it... Like take out everything to dry and fix it back... So... I guai guai, brought it out to IT... The guy looked at it and asked me to fill up a form...

Later on when I went back wanting to collect, he told me need to write a report on how the coffee spill. And address to the boss for approval to change the keyboard cos sticky. I almost fainted... The BOSS!!! Had I knew need to go so high up I wouldnt have sent it in for servicing. Just use tissue to clean it... Haiz... I was like jialat jialat... The IT guy quite nice la, showed me a sample to follow... I was running in and out of the training room the whole day. Even as the facilitator was going thru the notes, I was switched off liao.... Thinking how to write the letter, or how to get back my laptop without going up to the boss. I couldnt take it any longer. I wanted so much to cry... But i know it wouldnt help the situation at all. I held back my tears... I lost my appeitite and didnt eat my lunch...

In my heart, I was praying very hard. God, let this thing pass without having to go up to the boss. Help me close this case. Give me favour with the IT ppl. They dun have to change my keyboard for me. I just want my laptop back. I kept praying and praying.

I managed to do up the letter just before the day ended and brought it to IT dept. The IT guy asked me to sign and take back my laptop... It was fixed... He said that this time round let me pass... No need to get approval from the boss. My prayers were really answered!!! I was so so so happy. And at the back of my head, I was praising God...

Then I went for nursery dinner for some of us... The food was nice... But dear wasnt able to go cos of reservice. But the dinner went well, so good la... But if dear were ard, then it would be the best day liao... Yeah!!!! Really thank God for today...

Jio me out!!!

This week has been passing so slowly for me... Everyday I'm like why nobody jio me out? I've already said that I'm free... Just cos my ah dear dear nt ard for me means I got no other life? No other friends? Haiz... Managed to chit chat with ppl on the phone for hours... But have been going out on my own... Like a loner like that... Also reaching out to friends.... Mostly thru sms cos that's how we'll communicate... Meet up for tea, meals dun really work for my friends... But anyway... Have been planning lots of things to do to keep myself busy...

Hehe... Like planning to go gym but ended up didnt go cos went xmas shopping instead... Also got worked out la... Kekeke... Deceiving myself? Hahahaha... Also went prayer meeting and bible study during the week. Feel so weird without Ken ard... Like no where to go other than the shopping malls... And home to the comp games... Where are my friends??? But thank God that my friend will be joining me tml at Pitstop... And I think xmas I've have friends too... I am not a loner!!! But do feel a little lonely now that Ken's in camp for these 2 weeks... And I having training... Can leave office early.... Haiz... Lonely but not loner... ...

I'm back!

Just came back from Penang... A well rested trip, shopped til we dead... Hahaha... We started shopping at 1330, and left the place ard 2030!!! All the 6 of us!!! Hahaha... Think the guys should be awarded prizes for efforts and for conquering shopping... Heh... I bought a soft toy... Hmmmm.... Should I say a small bolster?

This is the 2nd one I have after the taiwan emerge... The 1st one was a mickey mouse that the brothers shot down for me. This time it's a garfield small bolster... Hee... Ken bought it... We went back and activated every one to help find back that shop... Cos the shopping centre is so big and so messy that we couldnt find it the 2nd time round... So took some time... Bit really like it a lot, it's so cute... Thanks my ah dear dear...

Watched lots of movies too... On the bus, cos nothing else to do and didnt wanna read cos bad lighting.. So just watched tv.... hehe....

Counting my blessings...

Building fund season has began... And I've also started counting the blessings I've recieved... From this coming paid trip to penang, to the new skin top to the S$100 from my mom to spend on the trip... Think it's hundreds liao... And it's only the 1st month since I started to sow...

I cant wait to fufil my building fund!!! It's so exciting. I wonder how much God is going to bless me this time round.... Hmmmm.... Thirty fold? Sixty fold? Or hundred fold? Or even more? God is indeed good... And if my pay also increase... Heh... My God is a miracle working God... How can u not believe that there's a God???!!!

Call me k? I'll tell you more... Especially thru the drama on 23rd, 24th and 25th at expo... You'll understand it even without me telling... The greatest love story ever told on this earth...

I'm leaving soon

I'll be leaving for Penang on Wed nite... After BS... Think this is a good time to leave and relax, recharge and reflect... As the year comes to an end, it's time to evaluate myself... The things that I've done in this year... The ppl I've impacted in this year... The ppl I've touched...

And to start planning what I wanna do in the next year... Setting my career path too... To stay or to look for greener pastures... Lots of things to think abt... Lots... I got to organise my thoughts, my mind...

04/12/2006 Journeying...

I am on leave this whole week, so yesterday I went out and get stuff done... I went to find my mom at her workplace to tell her that my sis not going home for dinner then went down to vivocity to get movie tickets, then went to Caldecott to collect Ken's prize, then went back to vivo for movie and dinner, before heading home to catch the 10pm show... Hahaha... Went abt by bus and not train, so took quite a bit of time... Think from 1030am I left home and the movie was at 1540... So was travelling on bus all the way...

I took 30 and I passed by the place where my sec sch was... All the past memories filled my mind... I typed them in my phone... ...

"As the bus passes my ex-school compound. My mind flashed back of all the fond memories of this place. This was the place I first met Ken. We've always wanted to come back here to take our wedding photo. But I guess it'll never come to pass. As the bus passes the school field, images just flashed in my mind. This is the place where we threw javelin, threw shot put, whewe'll pass by when going to the swimming pool. Where Ken'll be running and playing soccer, where he will be giving commands to his scout juniors to do this and that... I cant help but smile... Then as the bus turns, I realised that it has been changed into another school... Commonwealth Sec Sch... The canteen is under renovation, dunno if the canteen vendors follow the school or the compund... Are they still around? But I felt so sad... All the past can only be remembered by memories and photos. The current physicak structure is no longer the same.

In a few more years' time, I guess it'll look and feel totally different. Even our JC has shifted place and taken over by my sec sch. It feels so weird... I dun think I'll go back to my JC or shld I say Sec Sch to take photos there... Think I can drop this idea... The feeling is no longer there... hahaha... My Pri sch also shifted place... To where Ken's pri sch was.. So weird feeling... Heh...

But... Maybe can still go Pandan Reservoir... Heh... Our 2.4km runs, and the walkathon.... Hahaha.... 40th anniversary of the school, Sec 1.... Think it was the only time I walked once round the whole reservoir... Hmmmm... And my tortoises....

But as physical structures give way to new ones, it's a sign that our country is progressing. And even in our own lives, we ought to do the same... We got to move on... Leave the things of the past behind and move forward. It's good to look back and reflect once in a while. But NOT to live in the past. We're still alive. And we're to make a difference in the world today. And this doesnt come about by dwelling in our past failures or successes, but by looking forward and work! So start moving!!!"

02/12/2006 Conviction

I went for service last Sat alone as I'll be serving on Sun. During the service, I could feel that Pst was preaching the best he could but the ppl were not as supportive. I did my best to support. And I felt the msg was so good.

On the way out, I happened to look up and realised that the seats of the sides were covered with black cloth as they were not filled. There were 3- 4 rows on both sides facing each other. I felt so grived.

The Holy Spirit was like telling me, you see these empty chairs? They could be filled, if you brought your friend. I really felt so convicted. You see Pst preaching his very best and even gave an altar call at the end. Although there are ppl saved, but what if these seats were filled up? More souls could have be saved in this service.

I went out and invited my friends, for xmas service and for this coming week's service. So far gt one friend coming this sun. I'll keep asking... As Pst does his best to preach, to minster; as the angels busy moving up and down the ladder at expo; I will do my part, I will keep inviting, I will keep sowing... I will exalt the name of the Lord in my life...

Harvest Times... I'm so blessed...

Was just wondering how many people realised how bless we are? Was holding onto Harvest Times and reading through the articles. These articles are written by top pastors in this generation. And inspirational articles about these people's lives who have left a legacy in this time. And the best thing is we get this magazine for free!!! Even though it's free, the quality of this magazine is not just like a cheap newspaper. But it's printed on glossy paper. And the cover is not smooth but has indents. The layout of the magazine is professionally designed. The graphics have been carefully selected to assist the reader to understand the article better.

As I was reading the first article written by Pst Kong. I was so in awe by the magazine and the message. It really makes me want to read on and know more and be inspired by people, heros of faith. Not just bible characters. But pastors, reverends whom we've heard in our church... Their life story. Their walk of faith... I've always liked reading biographies and reading lives about men and women of faith just spurs me to wanna become more like them!

It's time to reflect... Where's your copy of Harvest Times? What abt the last copy? And the last one? Or even the 1st one which you receive when you came to church? This is a top class magazine and you're so blessed to have it for free. What have you done with it? Have you read the whole magazine already? Are you hungry for more of God in your life? Think abt it... ...

Reflecting time....

Think it's really time to sit down and reflect and evaluate myself... As the year draws to a close... I pray that I can end this year well. I wanna be able to accomplish the things which God has placed within my care... I wanna do well in the marketplace as well. Even though it may not be easy... I wanna increase my capacity. I wanna be more sensitive. I wanna be more open and quick to change. I wanna have more faith. I wanna be able to handle stress better. I wanna know God better. I wanna be more sensitive to the Holy Spirit. I wanna have more gifts of the Spirit. I wanna be wealthy. I wanna be in good health. I wanna be happy. I wanna be filled with joy that can be spreaded to the ppl ard me. I wanna be able to sleep little but remain so sharp and alert and awake. I wanna complain less. I wanna be the person God has created me to me... I wanna... I wanna... I wanna... ... ...

Worship...

During worship in cg... I felt so like God was just discipling me... So gentle but it was like a 2-edged sword... Just felt so so so humbled by it...

Reminded that it's Him who exalts me... Telling me not to be puffed up... He is my strength... This season of time, not the easiest time to go thru. The burden will not be lighten... But at the end of the day, I'll become stronger, my capacity will increase.

I told God, I dun ask for the burden to be lighten, but I pray for stronger shoulders... To go thru all this. I pray that I wont give up. Even when chastening comes, I pray that I'll be so so so open and quick to change. I may learn things fast but I pray that I'll replace my bad habits fast too...

I need more of God in my life each day as the workload and the burden gets heavier... I want to increase my capacity. I wanna increase my patience, my longsuffering, my kindness, my understanding of things... I wanna be more and more like God.... God, show me the way... lead me on... you're the lamp unto my path, light unto my feet... God you're my almighty God.. You're for me... You're with me... thru it all... I need you...

What a week...

Havent been having the best of the week... Although the week started quite well, managed to go for prayer meeting cos not stuck in office... But for the rest of the week, started to feel so so so stressed... Practically from every aspect of my life...

Today's cg was very different... More of us moving in the spirit than just receiving... It's high time to do that... The cg is getting unappreciative and taking things for granted... Like stagnanting... Except for a few... Haiz... Talk abt stepping out in faith to do something new. Trusting in God...

But somehow... It just didnt happen... Fear just overwhelmed me... So strongly that I felt so crippled. I havent felt this kind of fear in such a long time. Really dunno wat happened... So so weird feeling. When Ken talked abt God has not given you a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. I was just thinking, how come this verse didnt come to me earlier? And at that pt in time when I felt the fear... I really couldnt feel power, nor love nor have a sound mind. I just dun understand what happened...

Just feel so stressed and tired and far from God. Feel like just putting everything aside and really spend time seeking te Lord in the mountains... But how when the pile of work cant finish and there's no one who can help? How when you feel so tired and no more energy to think abt anything else? How??? I hope this passes over fast... Dun like this feeling... Yucks!

God showed me a verse... 1 Cor 14:12... It's time to meditate on it... It's time...

15/11/2006 Prayer Meeting...

Was in the prayer meeting just now. Prayed in the nursery... Although it is not the most condusive envt to pray but nevertheless as i opened up my heart to seek the Lord, His presence just filled me. I totally ignored the people ard me and focused on worshipping and seeking the face of God. He refreshed me and gave me strength for the week.

Havent been sleeping early.. Or well... think too stressed liao... My new job going to start... 2 assistants under my care... And the jobs seniors very zai one... So super stressed... But this stress is I give myself one... Cant help it... Haiz...

Nursery side also got more things to plan n do... Cos we are changing... To become more relevant... And build stronger bonds, more leaders, more ownership, less commitment problems... Hee... Having fun though still got a little stress... Cos wanna do things well...

Ken also give me stress... Haiz... Wanna help him more cos he having exams but sometimes just dun feel like moving... Cos so tired liao... need a lot of refreshin here man...

Time to seek the Lord again...

Why not updated for so long?

My siblings la... Everytime I come home, they're playing the comp... then cant blog using my laptop cos cant access... Had lots of things happening to me this period of time...

Just pledged to the building fund... This is so exciting, even though got to be more conscious abt purchases, but it helps to discipline me... Been giving to the building fund for the past few years since 2000, everytime, God just blesses me back... The last bf, I got into big 4... Really thank God for it...

This time round is the first time I'll giving as a real working adult. The amount I pledged really stretches my faith... Although the amount may not be a lot... But this is the most I've given thus far... And it's really a sacrifice... This time round very different... Not like in sch, can really save cos gt concession. Now muz take cabs to client's place, although claimable but still muz fork out the money first... Pray that I'll be able to get thru the month...

After cg last fri.. I went home to seek the Lord... God just impress upon my heart a few verses and He kept asking me questions...

What is your capacity? How do you gauge or rate your generosity level? You limit yourself if you think you cant do it or make it; you cant cos as a man thinks in his heart, so is he. Different amount, equal sacrifice. Is the amount you giving a sacrifice or are you just tipping? Only you know it in your heart!!! The bible says 'freely you have received, freely give'. 'Give and it will be given back to you. Good measure, pressed down shaken together and running over will be added to your bosom. For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you.'

God just kept asking me, do you believe that your returns will be based on the measure which you give? Then do you trust me that as you sow this measure of money, it will be multiplied back to you? Do you trust me? Am I a God who is limited?

I've been released...

I was booked on this job for last fri til this fri... Then I just went into the job and did wat I could as fast and accurately as I can... And God is good, got early released... So will be going back to office tml... Kind of miss those days where I can surf net and do wat I want... Heh...

Today was a exciting day. My mgr for the job came down for field review... So everyone quite stressed. I also... Cos I wanna clear finish the points fast and really try to help the team to finish asap. But the client not ready, couldnt give us the documents we asked for... So there's a limit to wat I can do and finish...

Yesterday, I asked my senior to let me go off early today and on friday cos today got bs and fri got cg... tha was mon... At 7pm yesterday, I went to 'hand up' some work and asked for permission to leave at 730pm... he allowed me to go and asked wat time i had to go on wed and fri, 730? I said... 'Er... No... at 6pm...' He was like wa... Hmmmm.... Wat reaction huh? But I decided to trust God... Cos it's for His sake that I'm leaving early... Cos I wanna seek Him... So I just left to give BS at 730...

Today I managed to finish my stuff at 4pm, cos got some issues that my snr says he'll resolve himself... So I just need to document what I know and pass everything back to him... Then helped him a bit here and there... At 540, he gave me a new thing to work on... I was like God!!! You got to help me!!! I need to leave at 6pm in order to travel down... Wanted to go by public transport to suntec for bs.... So need at least an hour to travel down... But i only managed to finish the document at like 620... I passed it back to him and told him i really need to leave...

He was alright with it and let me go, I packed my stuff and sped walked out of the client's place with my bag, laptop bag and jacket. I was praying all the way out to the gate. Thank God it stopped raining liao... Then when I reached the gate, I was like almost crying out... God, you got to send the cab now. I cant make the rest of the class wait for me... Help!!!

And God is just so good... He let me see 2 cabs... One hired - a normal cab... And one empty one!!! A mercedes cab!!! Heh... The driver stopped... I hurriedly got on the cab and told the driver my destination. Then I asked, wat time can reach huh? I told him I got to reach the office by 7pm... He assured me it was possible... I enjoyed the ride... The radio played a song... God is watching you from a distance... I was like wa... God I know you're always there for me, thank you God... Tears started to well in my eyes... Mercs cabs rides are more smooth, not so jerky and i managed to rest... In the midst of praying that there's no jam... Managed to read my bs notes b4 i went for the class too...

I reached the office at 5 min to 7pm... Even had time to go toilet b4 the class... Heh... God is just so good... Hee....

A fruitful day...

Today woke up realising my siblings were not going to school... So i washed up and left home while my bro played the comp... And my sis was still in bed... Well well... I had my those days too... Hee....

Reached office at 850... Then helped my fren get some stuff, requisited some stationery n set off for client's place... Reached at 10am... Still to do one section; one leadsheet... Like copied last year's work... But got some new accounts... So need to document the work myself... Then went for lunch at the nearby canteen...

Came back continued to work on the leadsheet.. Went up to find the client and talked to them for the first time in the day.. At near 2pm... Not very helpful cos they all busy with the month end closing... But thank God, I managed to find the schedules that I need... Made copies... Then worked with the documents I had obtained... Then need to vouch the invoices and payments vouchers... So wrote a list for the client...

And guess wat? When I asked her to show me where to get the documents, she asked me which are the ones I need... Then she took the list and extracted out all the documents I needed for me!!! Wow!!! What favour... At the end of the day, I managed to complete most of my work... Left 7 invoices to vouch... Completed the leadsheet and the manual workpapers...

On my side, my other colleague was screaming... Cos she cant get the schedule she needs... The client keeps giving her stuff that was not wat she asked for... When she went to find the payment voucher herself to vouch, she couldnt find even one after searching for 2 hours!!! I really really thank God for favour...

I passed the section to my AIC for review at near 6pm... He gave me a new section to work on... Wow!!! This one is not as easy... But I'm all geared up and ready to start work... Here I come... Ermz... Not now now... But looking forward to my A11 days... Heee.... The sections more interesting... Not all vouching only... Heh... May tml be another frutiful day too...

Update...

I had a long long long holiday after Bruce n Shaun's wedding... Dun feel like working... Hahaha... Then with all the festivals around, holiday here n there... So took quite a lot of toil and leave... Heh... It's time to settle down and get back to work... Just when I thought of doing that... I was hit with gastric flu... Haiz...

Been quite busy since Sun... Went for duty then blood donation then dinner with Ken's family at AV then coffee at west coast McCafe... Then Mon went back to work... Thought going down client's place, who knows client not ready... So I took half day toil and went out with Ken... Hehe... He's supposed to be studyin n I was supposed to be working... Oh well... hehe... Went to catch a movie... Haiz... So much for all the nominations that it got... Quite a boring show... Hahaha.... Went ate lots of stuff in bet also... Then Ken went for tuition...

Ken wanted to go school early on tues to revise his work... I told him I'll sleep in... But I was planning to go with him liao la... But who knows when I woke up, I was overwhelmed with pangs of nausea... I ran to the toilet and vomitted... Then diahorrea... That was at 7am!!! By 930, I had vomitted 3 times and diahorrea twice... I laid down on the toilet floor and slept cos I didnt wanna run again... Aft a while I managed to get up and struggled to pour myself a glass of hot water...

I drank... And within half an hr, I was back in the toilet, vomitting... Haiz... By 1pm, I had vomitted like 7 times and had diahorrea 5 times... My parents were working and my siblings were entertaining themselves with the computer and the tv... Haiz... At the same time, I was having gastric pains... Thank God by afternoon all these stopped... I just slept n slept... Ken bought porridge for me and I ate like a third of it then went back to sleep... He later left for tuition... Thanks dear... Sorry for the trouble... Made u couldnt study...

Mom came back at 5+ and gave me medicine... Had fever too... Then later finished most of the porridge Ken bought... then slept ad slept...

On wed... supposed to go work but my gastric pains were still there... I decided to see a doc n get mc... Hehe... I know I'm supposed to be working... But health more impt rite? So see doc then came back... And slept... and slept... Hehe...

Went for BS at nite then met up with Yuhao n Alice... Think now quite alright liao...

Not having as much diahorrea and no vomitting liao... But still having pangs of pains... I'll just lay hands and pray that it goes away... Especially with my medicine running out liao... And I'm supposed to be working... Heh... Went loyang for despatch just now... Think I'm quite alright liao... Hahaha... Shld be going Ang Mo Kio tml... Need to turn in liao... Will update again...

Looking forward to the outreach this sat at expo... Think will be fun... Kekeke... Who wanna join Huiqin's team??? Sure win one... Heh... Hmmmm.... We'll see... Eh... Can I be excused from eating? Hahaa....

Genesis 50 (Part 2)

Vs 19-20 --> But Joseph replied, “Don’t be afraid of me. Am I God, that I can punish you? You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.

It's really amazing how God's ways are higher than our ways. A normal person rejected by his own family, gone thru all the kinds of hardship that Joseph went thru will grab this chance to revenge what his bros had done to him when he was younger. But Joseph saw things in a different light. He has seen how God began to set up the situtation so that the whole country will be saved thru him.

And Joseph has such a big heart... He let go off his past hurts and accepted, loved his brothers... Treated them the best he can... Where to find such people nowadays?!?!?!

God, I also wanna have a big heart like Joseph... Help me to forgive and forget... Help me to love like how you love... Take away the past hurts, give me my Manasseh and Ephraim...

Genesis 50 (Part 1)

In verse 11 --> The local residents, the Canaanites, watched them... Then they renamed that place Abel-mizraim, for they said, "This is a place of deep mourning for these Egyptians".

Abel-mizraim means "mourning of the Egyptians".

Here we see that Jacob, Joseph's dad has just passed away. Joseph went back to Canaan to bury his dad, together with his household, his brothers and their households; accompanied by 'all of Pharoah's officials, all the senior members of Pharoah's household, and all the senior officers of Egypt'. When Joseph lost his dad, all those people felt that they also lost someone dear to them that they mourn together with Joseph. This is the kind of influence Joseph has!

Joseph was not born an Egyptian but he had so much influence over the Egyptians that they would follow him wherever he goes. Even to an unknown land for them, they were willing to go for him. This made me think... How many of us are influencers in our marketplace? In the place where we spend most of out time. The place where we interact the most with the people around us. The place which we are supposed to transform. And the sad thing is, some of us cant even influence one person! Not even this one closest to us!!! Then how can we be history makers and world shakers? Are we changing lives? Are we changing nations?

It's time to sit down and think and reflect. 2 more months before the year 2006 comes to an end... What have you done in the past 10 months? Have you released your fullest potential? Have you touched the lives of people God has placed into your hands? What have you done in this year to glorify God? Do you think God is pleased with you?

Pst always preaches 'You're born for such a time as this!' Do you really believe it? Who is the last soul you've saved? Where has the fire in you gone to? Are you no longer urgent and compassionate for souls? Do you still remember why Christ died??? It's time to get back to fire and end the year well...

Genesis 19

Recently, I've started to re-read the bible, the NLT version... It's really exciting to read the bible again. I've been getting revelations just by reading and meditating on the Word. Every night as I read, I get more and more awed by God. He is really an amazing God; an awesome God. Despite reading the bible a few times through already, I can still get new revelations as I read again. This book is really the Word of God, a double-edged sword! There is no other book like this!!!

In Gen 19, the bible talks abt Sodom and Gomorrah being destroyed. From this one chapter, I learnt lots of things... In the 1st part, we know that the men in the city wanted to have sex with the angels!!! I was totally turned off. These men wanted to have sex with men... (the angels were in the form of men) These men were so so so blinded that they no longer could discern between what's right and what's wrong.. This is so sad... Later on the angels told Lot to get out of the city for the outcry against the place was so great that it has reached the Lord. So Lot was a righteous man, living in a'Sin City'.

Let's look at the scriptures, in vs 14-16...

14 So Lot rushed out to tell his daughters’ fiancés, “Quick, get out of the city! The Lord is about to destroy it.” But the young men thought he was only joking.
15 At dawn the next morning the angels became insistent. “Hurry,” they said to Lot. “Take your wife and your two daughters who are here. Get out right now, or you will be swept away in the destruction of the city!”
16 When Lot still hesitated, the angels seized his hand and the hands of his wife and two daughters and rushed them to safety outside the city, for the Lord was merciful.

After reading this, I was bewildered. First, I didnt know Lot's daughters were engaged. The 2 young men were destroyed together with the cities as they were slow. This really struck me. These 2 men were given a chance to live. But cos of their slow reaction and nonchalant attitudes towards the words spoken by the angels, they died. They 'killed' themselves. From this, I learnt to take God's words seriously. All the words, the visions that God had spoken and shown me will come to be pass. I must be URGENT and DILIGENT in bringing them to pass. Not just sit around and wait for things to happen.

Many times in life, we procrastinate. We see that the angels waited... 'Til dawn' before they became insistent. I began to ask myself. Am I so great that the angels have to wait for me? I made a decision... I want to be so quick to obey God, so quick to get things done. I want to be the one who is so urgent and so accurate about the things of the Lord. Cos I love God and want to give Him my best. Everything I do, I'll do with a spirit of excellence.

Later on in the chapter, we know that Lot's wife turned back and turned into a pillar of salt. Lot's daughters got him drunk and had sex with him in order to preserve the family line; taking things into their own hands. And as a result, the people of Moabites and Ammonites were born, who are always moving against God's plan.

In life, ppl like to take things into their own hands, believing that they themselves know what's best for themselves. Not realising that the consequences of their actions are actually against the will of God, God's plan for their lives. So sad... Kaypohs... Why dun just trust the Lord???

Happy Honeymoon!!!

It's over!!! The holy matri and the dinner is finally over. Time really flies... The last time we were still going out for movies then he proposed... They then got busy planning and stuff... We went out to shop for furniture... Ken went to help with the cupboard... Then we went to pray for the new house... Then the day came... When two become one... Then now they'll be leaving soon for their honeymoon!!! So fast... It's so scary how time passes by...

To my bestest pals, enjoy ur honeymoon!!! May ur love for each other grow more n more each day... Let the courtship nvr end... And may little bruce n shaun come soon then i can see them in the nursery... Heh...

So fast!!!

Wow!!! This is my 50th post liao... Heh... In NUS now, waiting for Ken to finish up his proj then going down for service...

Quite long since I've attended Sat svc but for my dearest friends, I'll go... Cos Shaun n Bruce are getting married tml. Quite excited for them.I remember that time when Bruce wanna propose, then asked me to help me check out wat's Shaun's ring size and hahahaha.... So funnny.... Then Bruce himself let the cat out cos he left the ring brochures in his car back seat when picking Shaun up... Haiyo... So careless...

Now after 293 days of preparation and planning, the day has arrived. Going to Shaun's hse early tml morn... Told my mom abt it and asked her to wake me up tml... This kind of thing cannot be late one... Heh... 1st time I be ah yee... So scary but really excited... We'll see how tml... Heh...

My dear is a superman!!!

Dear going out with me tml!!! Despite being so busy, he dated me out... Although I planned the day... But it's going to be so exciting... Ken hasnt been sleeping much, in fact quite little... So he's asleep liao... Heee.... Shhhhhhh!!!! Hahaha... As if he can hear like that... Hmmmmm.....

Going to catch a show - Rob-b-hood then I going to meet some gals then meet him for a late lunch n maybe early dinner... Heh... The cafe menotti has promotion... 1 for 1 from 3pm to 6pm... So gonna check it out... Heard my fren it's good... Heh... Read review saying their dessert is superb... Heeee......

Then after that... Hmmmm... Havent plan yet... Maybe go meet up some friends... Oh... Need to meet up with bruce n shaun to pass them smthg... Hehz... Been waiting for this day for 200 over days liao... This Sun will be the day!!! Hahaha...

I hope my turn will come soon... Haiz.... Muz work hard n work out... Hahahahahaha.....

So busy....

Haiz... My dear is so busy... Even now when Sun he no longer have tuition, he doesnt have time to go gai gai with me... See his schedule:

Mon - Tuition
Tue - Meeting
Wed - BS
Thurs - Tuition
Fri - CG
Sat - M'sia / Study
Sun - Svc / Study...

Haiz... Who said that working ppl are more busy? See?! I'm so free... On leave on thurs n fri then mon to wed... Cos of my good fren wedding... Dun wanna be tied down by work but guess i'll have to go shopping alone... Like wat I've done for the past 2 days...

When Ken goes tuition, I went shopping... Yesterday at west mall n today at lot 1... Didnt spend a lot la... Hahahah.... Bought only one skirt - $46... Need to find a top to go with it... It arent fun shopping alone.... Nope... No one to comment on how the clothing fit... Good choice, etc... Haiz... I dun wanna come out and face the sales ppl alone, they sure say very nice very nice and push u to buy something which looks just yucky on u... Haiz... Who wanna go shopping with me???

Be Generous!!!

Being generous attracts ppl to you. Especially in Singapore. People raised here are kiasu. So we all have a 'to get' mentality. This can be seen at any place where free things are given out. The queues are incredibly long! Some ppl may even go hours before to start queuing! Sometimes I wonder... Is your time worth more than the cost of the freebie that you're queuing for? And for some cases, but dun even get the freebie cos you're the 501th person and there were only 500 sets of freebies!

Recently, I went for a meal with a group of friends... Realised that there are not many ppl who have been to restaurants or cafes for meals. Not very shocking, but I felt that as guys, you all should know what are the various places which serve good food and where they are. Cos next time when you guys are attached, how are you going to impress ur gf / future gf? You need to have the resources... Not start doing research just hours before the date!!! It'll be totally lost form if your gal has been to that place and know wat are the things to look out for and you dun... How are you then going to impress???!!!

And most importantly, be generous!!! In a group setting, even when you go out with friends to makan, the least you should pay is the amount that you've consumed... And please take note that service charge, GST and CESS are usually not included in the menu prices!!! Yep... So pay ur fair share!!! Unless someone offers to pay the surcharges la...

Personally, I always make it a point to give that person who offered to foot the bill first a few dollars or cents more. This is my way of showing my appreciation that he has foot the bill 1st. For eg... If wat i eat costs 18.30 and after the surcharges, it's 21.05, I will not pay the person 21... I'll give a min of 22 or even 25 if I'm not financially very tight... Dun you think he deserves that extra coins? I mean just to thank him for paying 1st... So be the one who pays la, then can earn a bit... Heh... Be generous... It makes ppl wanna go out with you; it draws ppl to you....

Hmmmm... Is that a revelation? Hahahaha.... Yep... Even with our friends in our workplace, school, camp or marketplace. By being generous, it'll draw ppl to you!!!

Here's a little something abt Ken... Hehe....

I always remember the 1st time Ken brought me out for fine dining... It was a buffet at a hotel... Being raised up in a traditional chinese family where gatherings are all in my place and my mom would whip up meals to feed the clan... I've nvr been to a hotel for a meal... So this was an eye-opener... We walked into Trader's Hotel. Ken talked to the waiter who sat us down at our table... Yep... He had made a reservation b4 that.... It was a buffet and we went to get our food... I think there were many many diff sizes of cultery on the table... I didnt know which to use. Ken didnt put me down, instead, he slowly explained to me which to use 1st and for wat purpose... It had been a few years back liao... But I remembered that he carried himself very well... Far from a mountain tortoise... We were not very old then, think in JC or sec 4 days... He impressed me... When footing the bill, he just paid for the full amount without even asking me to chip in.... He told me he had saved for this meal and had enough to pay for us... Think it was more than 38 per head... Quite a bit for someone who's not earning... He wanted me to have an experience which I've nvr had before... At the end of the day, I was blown away by him... Heh....

So guys, please... To capture the hearts of ur gf, start doing ur research!!! Go with ur friends to check it out... It doesn't have to be every week, but maybe once every few months? Source for a good place to go and save up for it... Pls be generous!!! It'll go a long way... Especially when gals have super ultra good memories... Hahahaha... You'll be the most sought after guy ard as the gals will all be talking abt u!!! Heeeee..........

1st Showflat

I wrote these entries on the way to church this morn and now just typing them out... I went to our 1st showflat with Ken yesterday... Interesting... There was a super long queue... Yeah, think of the publicity it has been getting... And it was the 1st day of the showflat and it was a Sat... And it's the 1s dbss project undertaken by a pte developer... Yep! It's the Premiere@Tampines. NO NO!!! We're not getting married yet!!! Hahaha.... This flat will only be ready in 2009... June... We thought of planning ahead. so went to check it out...

The showflat was until 6pm... We managed to reach ard 515pm after his tuition... And we were the last 2nd grp allowed into the place. Of course, they later extended the time and allowed more ppl to go in. Hahahaha... We were just thinking, had we been a little later, it would have been a wasted trip from Jurong!!! Hehehe....

After viewing the showflat and talking to the ppl abt the eligibility, we realised that we may not be able to get this flat cos of the finances... I've only started working for a year and paying back my study loan... So not much saving done... Needless to say abt Ken who's still studying... In addition, this flat was not very cheap... Perhaps cos it's the 1st dbss proj undertaken by a pte firm. And then the pubilicity will surely escalate its cost... At the end of the day, we learnt that it was really not possible for us to get a flat now...

If we were to get housing loan to finance this house, the interest incurred would be enough to sap us... And 3 years seem a little short... So we looked at the showflat and decide to let it go... One day, when there're more projects that have been undertaken by pte developers, the prices might go down... Especially when firms compete with each other to push prices down... Heh...

And we learnt one impt lesson... It's never too early to start saving for a flat... You need at least 20K cash or CPF for a 200K house which is not easy to find liao... Most houses cost at least 300K after renovation... Thus we need to save n save too... Or do we have any sponsors? Heee....

Serving God...

Just celebrated my bday a few days ago... Quite interesting day... Went to M'sia with Ken and ate at sushi king... Then after prayer meeting, my cg bros surprised me with another celebration... I was really surprised... Hahaha... Then we shared our goals for the next 3 years and 5 years... Interesting wat goals the bros have made. I pray that their goals will all come to pass...

Pst's going to start on a new series very soon. Have been so very blessed by the marriage series although I missed most of them... I'll get my cds very soon and I'll have the full set of notes!!! Heh... Pls queue up... 1st is Ken parents... After me... Hehe... Think u all unmarried and married ppl shld get too!!! These kind of thing shld invest in one...

Building fund is coming... It's going to be so exciting... My privilege to be able to give and participate in this exciting campaign... This new building is mine! At least I know part of it was made by my money. My life and effort, I bought it; I worked hard, earned the money and bought it. Yep! You too can be a part of this. But do pray for the amt 1st. It's not an amt that is calculated or left over from ur savings. But this amt is something that God is going to speak to you. This will cost you something and strengthen your walk with God. This amt is going to be such a divine amt. And the following few months to come is going to be a trust walk with God. That if God dont come true for u, you wont be able to survive the week. This is the time when you'll totally depend on God.

I'm so excited. The time has come again!!! I remember just the last one... I asked God to give me my job. And it came to pass. I know that I'm where God has planned. Sometimes, I feel a dilemma. Should I get a lower commitment job: a normal 9-5 job with a lower pay but more certain 'fang gong' time. But I'll always remind myself... God has opened doors for me and enabled me to be working in one of the big four. In addition, what faith do you need if u know for sure you can come for svc and cg and to serve Him? I mean it's like it doesnt need much faith to serve God with a 9-5 job. But with my current job when i cant take leave during the few months... But I still choose to put God 1st, ask my snr and mgr for permission to come for cg and svc every wk... I need lots of faith and favour. I need the wisdom of God. I need the Holy Spirit guide to ask the qn at the rite time...

My goal for now... I can be busy but I'll still be able to come for service and cell group weekly...

Am I angry?

Someone asked me... Are you angry? Hmmmm.... How to answer this qn? Let's see... I'm no longer angry...

It's not one thing that made me angry... It was a series of things then a spark... Then I blew my top... Haiz... Nvm... It's over now...

Resolved...

So sweet,,,

Last nite I went for dinner with my family... Then upon reaching home, my bro gave me a present... I told him i just wanted a necklace... He got me that... Then something more... A anti=eyeshadow cream... Hmmmm... I was like wat's that?

He said... You have been working thru the nite... So u see all ur dark eye rings all come out liao... So something for you to hide that.... So sweet... So thoughtful... I didnt even think of that... Heh...

This set me thinking... We always ask ppl what they want for bday. then we go and get it for them. When the person gets the present... They open and thank the giver for the gift... And it ends there... But what happened to those days where you discover for urself wat the person wants for bday? Then get it for them... Isn't that more wonderful? More surprising? Makes bday more exciting and expecting... Hahaha...

Just a thot...

I'm falling sick

Haiz... Having bad sore throat and an irritated nose... Think havent been drinking enough water and the horredous workin hours I had been getting...

Muz recover soon... I wanna enjoy my toil...

My co just started a new system... Online signing in of unassigned... bad bad bad... cant get others to sign in for u... cant log in late cos monitored by the system... cant log in from home. quite foolproof... haiz... think got to find its bugs... Kekeke.... Basically, muz go in punctually and dun think of leaving early...

But well... maybe can go out shopping then come back to sign out when it's knock off time... Ermz... Heh... Will need to see how... I wanna change new laptop!!! Heard they just came in today. Ha... Hope I get to change mine... So old liao... Hehe...

What a surprise

Just came back from expo... Was told that there was a meeting which I had to attend after service. So I travelled all the way down. Auntie wanted to make some announcements and so needed me to be there. And bumped into weiyan on the way, pulled her in too... Hee... And it was great cos the announcement also involves her.

Then they also celebrated the Sep babies/ helpers' bday. Starting from the month of Sep... This will start. Such a pleasant surprise... Got a card and weemin blessed the ppl. Ate the cake and off we went for dinner at sakae at tiong bahru plaza with ruix...

There was a promotion going on... $9 for 9 plates and subsequent 10th plate will be the usual price. However this is only valid for the first 9 plates per table. Had we known earlier, we would have sat at diff tables. Hahaha... But as a result, we saved money... Heh... Ate a total of 12 plates, each person only had to pay $5.80. And we were all just filled, not too full nor hungry...

In the morn went for the treetop walk with my mentor group... Very tiring and our legs were wobbly when we came down. I almost fell when I missed one step... But thank God I didnt... Then it was followed by lunch. Cabbed home to bathe cos Peifen wanted to go for service and we werent sure how to go home from there... After bathing supposed to go pei ken study. But he said he was with his friends, so I supposed he didnt need more company... So i took a nap to nurse my headache... Muz be the sun... Forgot to bring cap or shades... think my scalp got burnt... Got a little sun burn on my shoulders too, but not the very bad kind.

On the whole it was quite a fruitful day except I didnt managed to meet Ken at all....

Can you come out with a better idea?

Hahaha... Just came back from cg. Had an interesting day. Was free in the morn so spent my time preparing for my next few assignments. then went for mentor training, the mgr talked so long that it ended late... So left office only at 6+.... Had to reach Ken's hse at 7 for prayer meetin... My colleague and I rushed off from office..

After I walked out of my office, the strap of heels broke... And I was running late... I just continued the journey with my broken heel... Hee... Then we managed to get to the station and took train to jurong east... The queue for cabs were ridiculously long... I just felt that the Holy Spirit was telling me dun just stand there to wait. U can put in more effort. How desperate are you to get to cg?

My colleague went to get dinner, 2 hotdogs before we head over to the main road in front of S11 at guardian there. I was so panicky while walking over. I was praying in tonuges inside me as we dash thru the crowd. She has just started to join us for cg and I didnt wanna scare her off... So when I was reaching the road, I saw lots of emtpy cabs zooming past. I flagged and one stopped.

My colleague was in awe. I was like thank God!!! I can make it for prayer meeting on time and even got some time for us both to visit the toilet before pm starts! Think God is really really good. As you desire to come for cg, God will surely open a door for you. Even when the devil tries all sorts of ways to stop you, make training end late, make shoe strap break, make taxi stand super long queue. But he is still no fight to the good and almighty God I serve, for God grants his servant the desire of his heart. Reminds me of this song...

God You're good to me
Lord I'm in love with You
God You bless my life
Lord You heal my soul

All I wanna do is thank you Jesus
All I wanna do is praise your name
All I wanna do is thank you Jesus
All I wanna do is praise your name ... ...

Hallelujah!!!

Some thoughts...

That day I was at boon lay bus interchange waiting for bus. There was an uncle who was sweeping the leaves up. Nvr seen this scene b4 in the old bus interchange. Muz be the new interchange then the mgmt wanna project a very clean image of the place. Kekeke.... Then I saw a coin on the floor... On the road, where the bus moves. So the uncle was sweeping the leaves and he spotted the coin. He paused, picked the coin up and pocketed it.

Was just wondering how much he gets from picking up these coins each day. To the person who dropped the 10 cent, it'a most probably insignificant cos he didnt even pick it up... But when this little 10 cent coin accumulates, it'll be quite a bit... And this sweeper gets some bonus each day... I remember in my JC time, someone told me her grandma walks ard picking up 1 cent coins, and she can collect ard $5 per month!!! It's good income for grannies...

Then later in the same day I went for tuition. After tuition I went home to bathe and change b4 rushing out to meet Ken near church... I was pretty late so i took 157 and to change to 242 or 99. 242 came once i reached the busstop but it was full but i had to get on. So i just got on the last step of the 242. I was the one who got on the bus at that stop. As the bus moved off, God just asked me 'how desperate are you? to what extent will you go? How far will you press in?' so the qn is how far will you go for God?

On leave...

I'm on leave today til wed...

But still as busy... Hahaha... Running ard in NUS... Planning for the event on 23rd Sep... So pls invite your friends to come k? It's going to be fun... Bet it's good work out for u guys who have been procrastinating to go for that jog huh? No la... It's not that siong... Hahaha... This is going to be so so so fun... I wont talk abt it liao... In case I give out clues... Hehehe... Think I stupid rite? Talk talk talk then aiyah... Or oops... HEehe.... Just know this, it's going to be fun. So invite ur friends!!!

Slept in til 11 plus today then had a bad headache. think shouldnt have slept so much, the body not used to it... In fact still having headache now... Hmmm... Should I sleep early later or shld I not sleep so that the body has the same average no of sleep? Hahaha... This is getting so confusing. Like the rules of the game... Kekeke...

Oh ya, met ken, yan and xing in NUS to discuss the rules. Laughed our heads off... So tickling... At the end of the day, we all got a fair share of the planning to do... And it's so fun... Hahaha....

It's sowing time... Yeah!!!

God is good, preparing me as the day to sow draws nearer... Have been offered a tuition deal that is flexible. I can go when I'm free. Fixing it at 2 lessons per wk, 2 hrs each. Hoping to earn a little more cash to sow into the building fund.

It's time to start praying for the amount to pledge. And I'm so excited. Many ppl in the world may be thinking, these ppl are crazy. So excited to give their money away to the church, why not give them to me? But these ppl dun see the vision that God has shown us, these ppl dun run this race which we're running. Then who are they to criticise what we're doing? To deter us from doing what God has told us to? So shut these voices in your life. Act on your faith! For faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God.

Ppl in the world can spend thousands or even millions of dollars pursuing their dreams. What abt ppl like us? Giving our little something to the Lord to build a bigger stadium where more ppl can come to know Him... Not for publicity, not to create more history breaking records, but really cos we wanna more ppl in this house. To end up in a place where life is so wonderful, where they have goals in life to work towards.

Was just reading the article in Harvest Times written by Pst Ulf. What stuck me was that everything we say matter. As we desire to be more and more like God, we got to be like Him in everything we do and every word we speak. Every word that Jesus spoke came to pass. No idle words from Him. In Isa 55: 11 Every word that goes forth from His mouth will not return to Him void, it'll accomplish the purpose which it was sent out for. And similarly, I pray that we can all come to a point where every word we speak will come to pass. I pray for good weather, and there's clouds and windy and sunny. I pray for new friends to come and there will be so many that we can fill a whole section. I pray for integration of these new friends and they all get planted in a cg, attending BS and continually reaching out to the lost. And Pst Ulf mentioned that we must make a constant effort to stay positive, to be affirmative. I was just thinking abt it. If every Christian I know, is able to do this, there wont be any counselling needed. Everyone will be such a happy person. Just like what Pst AR Bernard does, happiness is... :o)

Today's Lunches...

HAhaha.... Dunno how many meals i eat in one day man!!! Growing a tummy like nobody's biz... Hahahaha.... HEy... Dun check k???

Yep... Today went to client's place then had breakfast cos woke up only at 810 and had to leave home by 830 so didnt have time to eat. Then who knows aft reaching there, rush some work 1st... By the time I went to get breakfast and finished eating, it was 1030... then ken msged shortly asking if wanna meet for lunch... Diaoz...

He had lesson at 12pm lo... So we arranged to meet at 11am at the kopitiam... Then he was late... But he came with Kgoon and yan... Wat a pleasant surprise... Then it was a rushed lunch... They even had to cab back... So sorry, u all had to travel down and rush back... But it was a good time of relaxing... At least away from the grp of crazy gals... Hahaha... Back to sanity for that half hr...

Then Ken gave me a postcard... Hee... It's been so long since he wrote something to me... And it was so sweet. So encouraging... So touched by it...

When I went back client's place, my colleagues still working and I went with them for lunch again at the hawker opp Ginza plaza... Hee... Had lai lai pineapple... Reminds me of Sec sch days... But I was too full to eat the western... Haiz... Wasted... Hahaha...

So I had a toasted sandwich (luncheon meat, egg n cheese), porridge and rojak and pineapple juice and tehs... Hai yo... Been eating so much... Jialat man...

I survived!!!

Hahaha... It's so rare that now I can be here at home at this time... Hahaha... After such a long long few weeks. I'm finally more freed-up.

Like the theme of our team--"We will survive!" And indeed all of us have survived. We really went thru everything together. From the happiest moments to the saddest moments, to the craziest moments. We were in it together and thru it all... Thru this time, we've become best of friends, we share everything...

In all these time, God has really increased my capacity. I can work thru the nites and not be as tired as the rest of my colleagues. And most importantly, I picked up more PR skills. I've learnt that you got be see ppl without any prejudice. Even if the ppl ard u keeps talking bad abt someone, learn to see things from God's perspective. The person is someone who God loves.

And everyday we desire to be more like God. So we treat ppl with an open heart, dun gossip and see other ppl thru the eyes of God... Then it'll be very easy to work with any one!!! Yeah... God is good, I survived unscathed. Hahahaha....

Just 1 more day!!!

Yeah... I survived... Have been sleeping like 1 hr, 2 hrs, 4hrs for the past wk... But God has been very good, He has sustained me through the nites, thru the day with these little winks I managed to get... Physically and mentally very siong. This has been the worst engagement I've ever been on so far. Staying over nite at client's place is a norm... After 10pm is no need to say one... So far stayed over on 1 nite, then latest til 445am, then 3am+... Thank God it's really ending soon... If not I sure tender one... Hahaha....

But I really thank God for my colleagues, supporting me thru this period of time... They are ard to share the burden together. I seem to be spending like 90% of the time I'm awake with them... Have become very close friends. And they motivate me to trust God more and more.

I thank God for favour, being able to go for cg despite having to work til morn... And svc as well. And most impt, for health that during this period of time, I remain so healthy i cant believe it!!! Hahaha...

Any I wanna thank my cg for being there to encourage me... Thru it all, we all begin to see a new realm of God... I've learnt to really depend on Him to bring me thru each day!!! Luv my dear for being so understanding and encouraging... All the little little msgs mean a lot to me...

And one more day... And I'll be more free, able to knock off more normally... Like ard 6+ 7 latest(I hope)? Hee... Just one more day and nite... or rather it's 2 more days and 1 nite... Need to go catch up on my sleep for now...

Update again when I free to go shopping... Hee.... Fun Fun fun fun!!!! God got to be with me thru this period of time first b4 anything else... Haaa........

What to do when u only have 24 hrs a day???

Best soln: Sleep lesser, so that u have more awake hrs... Heee....

Havent been able to spend much time fellowhipping with my cg buddies... Feel really bad... Sorry guys, I really miss all of u... Even when I working, you're on my mind... But do drop me a call when u free to chat ya?

Yep, work has been very hectic recently... Working til ridiculous hrs... But I really thank God for this grp of fellow colleagues who support me during this time. We'll nag at each other, make sure everyone dun fall sick during this crucial period of time. We need each other now!!! Fun team and lots of 'stress-reliefers' we've come up with, like sharing lame jokes and listening to Christian music to destress, the music sharing sessions, renaming of songs and stuff... u name it, u have it... Hahaha...

We've all been working hard, til wee hrs... So far the latest is 5am for me... We left client's ard 1245... Hee... So havent been sleeping much. Cos slept til 730 then went work, next day worked til 1am, then sat also worked from 9 til 7... But really wanna thank all the ppl who have been praying for me... I know u're interceding on my behalf!!! Xie xie!!!

To those going to be taking exams soon, JIAYOU!!!!!!!!! You can do it... God's strength's with u!!! You can do it!!! U're the best!!!

In one month's time, this job shld be over and my bday will be drawing near... Can finally get some good sleep??? Hahahaha.... I hope so... I wanna watch moviessssssss also... the lakehouse, breakup... ... ... Think shld go rent vcd, I doubt i can catch them in threatre...

So sorry to my dear... I really wanna more time with u... But i've tried my best...

OH YA... To Kelvin, if he ever reads this entry.... Hahaha....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! May all u complete all the goals you've set in the next 3 months+... Favour in school with students and superiors... Promotions after promotions, pay rise after pay rise... :o) And babies after babies??? Hee... :)

I cried...

Haiz... Just now at client's place... I cried... Things were quite overwhelming... So many review points to clear, so many things to do in such a short time... And the points are so difficult to clear... Not sure wat he wants, nvr see b4 ones... Then my dad called... To scold me, cos the comp couldnt connect internet again. And I was the last person to be able to use it...

Looking at my laptop at my client's place and after hanging up with my dad... I cried... Hai... I didnt cry at first... Tears were just forming up in my eyes, so watery, and I was trying to control... Cos I just felt so stressed and helpless... I was like looking at my screen to figure out wat my mgr wants, at the same time thinking abt my comp at hm... Why is it down again? Wat did I do on Sunday... And just felt so helpless... Then my colleague opp me said, ' Hazel, dun cry!' I just started to tear... Then I was a little unstoppable... Haiz... Tears just refused to go back in... So I just let it out... Wiped my tears and went to zap some stuff... So that I can leave the room...

I came back, cooled down and told them wat happened... They tried to comfort me a bit... Then I also stopped thinking abt it... Started to faster clear my work so that we can all go back... Then so I started to da bao... And left the palce in abt 15 min...

Called my sis and tried to do remote comp saving... But cannot... Haiz... Then... I just went for dinner with Ken... And prayed... And I reached home, on the comp... Tried to reinstall my comp, touch here touch there, try this and that... Lastly... I decided to just try to system restore... And it worked... So here I am... Typing this entry now... Haiz... Sometimes... Things can get so overwhelming... Like the problems all come together... I remember in the morn I was still asking ard for things to do... Then at nite, I was overwhelmed...

But thank God that He is with me thru it all. I really need to pray for favour and efficiency to finish up my work... So that I can be a blessing to others by helping them... And I can leave early every fri to att cg or sem... God please bless me and multiply my time!!! I need to increase my faith!!! God help me with my unbelief...

Not a morning person...

Read Shaun's blog... Makes me think... Hahaha... Cos I not a morning person... Dun like to wake up early in the morning (before 9) to go work or out... Not very efficient in the morn also... But at least I dun go around irritating others... Hee...

Nowadays better liao... Used to waking up at 730... And I'll remind myself, this is the day that the Lord has made, I'll rejoice and be glad in it... This helps!!! And I'll be off to work, smiling... :o)

8 1/2 years together...

Happy Anniversary my dear... Hee... Time really flies... Through thick and thin, God brought us through... Through the days in Sec sch til now... No one day is the same or boring... You're so cute!!! Heee..... All the best in ur coming sem and everything u do... New things u'll do but u're going to be the head!!! Me will support u... As always... Heee......

So sad...

Just heard news that one of my friends broke up after 8 years + together... Feel so sad for them... My ex-classmates...

Thank God that Ken is still so attractive... Hahaha... Always trying to improve himself... Like going sun-tan cos of a dear friend's comments... Hahahaha... I wish for those carefree days when I can just laze and rest and sun-tan too... Sob sob...

Now just went back to work.. Still trying to pick up the pace of working... I pray my body can take it... Have been vomitting a bit after coming back from work... Haiz... God, strengthen my body... Still coughing slightly... Keep me in prayers!!! Thanks! Hee....

This one also very valuable...

This was taken when Sun is having her concert on the left of where we took this photo... We practically ran across the back of the whole hall, after Pst Khoo to have this photo taken... The 'Attributes' ppl asked us to take with all the Sun posters at the back... Nice background...

Really very proud of Pst Abraham Khoo... Very nice and humble man. Even treated us Kong Ba Bao before we came back... Hee....

My most prized photo...

I've been looking through the photos taken using my camera... Think the most prized one is this one...
Me with Sun and susan... Quite well taken also.... Think is a security guy took one... Thanks brother!!! Hee... :o)

The story of this Mickey Mouse...

Yeah... Finally... My brave brothers braved the front, using skills they picked up during their army days, they got this for me!!! Ken taking the lead, he conquered the 1st 2 rounds with his M-16... Then followed by Isaac and then Yuanxing... Ken became their advisor, giving them tips on how to aim to be a better marksman... And the result of this, I got their prize... Hee.... So who won at the end of the day? The Mickey Mouse!!! He got a free ride back to Singapore on Jetstarasia!!! Hahahaha... Yeah... We all had fun!!! See the brave brothers in action below...

Back again...

Just came back from my cg aka bbq... Quite interesting... Ya, I know... This entry should be abt how I got the mickey mouse.... BUT the photos are still being uploaded la... So wait la... Hee....

Interesting... The bbq... Had some food.... BBQ food are not good for my throat... But... Who cares... Hahaha.... We're to enjoy ourselves ma... Hope everyone enjoy themselves too... Think we need to come up with more cost efficient ways of enjoying ourselves... Hee.....

We should start a chain of ways huh?

I'm back!!!

Yeah!!! I'm back in Singapore... Went for service and cg yesterday... Then went to the doc then makan lunner then came home and koonz til 1030 today!!! Hahaha....

During p & w in service... I kept crying... Cos I was really thankful that God brought me home safely... Although my legs were wobbly and feel like jelly... I told myself I gotta to brace myself and give God all the praise and adoration... God's love just overwhelmed me and I couldnt stop crying...

Just wanna thank God for being with me through the whole mission trip and all my dearest friends for praying for me!!! Love u lots!

Will write again abt the mickey mouse I got, thanks to my brothers who shot it down for me... Heee.... :o)

So blessed!!!

Guess wat? My parents just blessed me with more cash!!! So total blessings for the trip? S$900!!! Wow!!!

Like wat Shaun says... If I had not stepped out in faith to do God's work, I would nvr have seen God moving in this way in my life!!!

Praise the Lord!!!

Thanks Shaun n Bruce....

Thanks for sowing into our lives again!!! Especially during this time when Lee foundations running down fast with all the renovations and furniture... Really, really touched by u!

Yan was asking me yesterday how much blessing I've received for this trip... I counted... It was 700!!! All from last sun til this sun... If u divide, it's like almost an hundred everyday!!! God is really my provider... I can say nothing except this trip is really wat He wants me to do...

Am packing my luggage now... And it's just so exiciting... Time really flies... I remember the 1st time God told me to go on this trip... I was like, God I will go... But God, You really really got to provide. And now, at hindsight... I really cant tell u how thankful I am towards Him... He really provided! And abundantly above all that I can ask or imagine!

So just wanna thank all the ppl who've blessed our trip and we'll do our utmost to touch the lives of the taiwanese! Await my testimonies... ...

TAIPEI, HERE I COME!!!

My sat....

Today went to quite a few places, was all sweaty and hot by the time I reached home at 9+...

In the morn, I woke up and keyed in my previous entry... Then went to eat tim sum buffet with Ken and his parents at Arena, upper jurong road, opp OCS there... The food very nice and reasonably priced... Ate til we were so so so full that we didnt eat anything else for the day!!!

Then met up with shaun and bruce at imm... Went with them to shop for their furniture... Then at furniture mall... They bought 2 pieces of furniture at the end of the day at a bargain price... The dining table and the carpet below it...

Then Ken and I went to Bugis to shop and i bought a pair of new slippers... Dun look at me like that... I need them... And it costs only 16 la... Hee... Then Ken had to go for the POC training and I went off back... To Jurong... To shop... Hahaha....

Went NTUC, then the shops nearby... Then took bus back to my market... Went to check out the exchange rate... For NT, today was 19.865... Heard from Ken that the rates at chinatown is the highest... So think we'll go change tml... Ya... then went to buy some dried cuttlefish sheets for Ken's mom.... Sound so funny... Hmmm, those kind usually in thin stripes but i bought those uncut type, one big pc one...

Then I remembered I forgot to buy vege... Haiz... Called hm and asked my mom where still gt sell vege at this hr... Hahahaha.... So went to get it... and went home aft that... Hee... Tml preparing breakfast for ken... Hope it'll turn out well.... Dunno why, cant sleep... Haiz... Jialat... 5 more hours then I need to wake up liao...

God grants His beloved sleep... I need it now... Think I getting very excited abt the trip... Hahaha... God give me peace... Hahahaha....

Windows of heaven are opened!!!

I'm so excited... Financial blessings just keep coming in like wow! It feels like the windows of heaven just opened and I'm being blessed almost everyday... Favour everywhere I go...

Just last Sun, I received a cheque from Sis Jav... And on Fri, I received an sms from Ken's mom... With all these blessings, it seems like this trip is totally paid for! I cant express how thankful I am to God... Indeed, as we serve His kingdom purpose, all these things are added to us.

On top of that, I just got my promotion on 1st Jul... That will bring in a couple of hundreds more at the end of the month... In addition, I should be getting my bonus soon too... Wow!!!

Ken also has been blessed with 2 additional tuition deals on top of the blessings he received from Sis and his mom and Shen & Yun... We were just counting how much the total blessings were... And guess wat? It is more than wat we'll be spending for the whole trip.

I remember when we just signed up for the trip... It was really by faith... I didnt have enough in my bank and I was really saving up for it... Everyday I would plead with God... God you want me to go, I'm willing but God you really got to provide... Knowing that He is a faithful God... We decided to trust God... I was thinking, even if I have to take a loan from my parents, I have to go this trip... Cos God spoke to me to go. And now, looking back... I can only say: God is faithful and He's my provider!

At my work place, I found favour too... On the week before I leave, I was supposed to jiao dai all the matters, settle everything b4 I leave... But I managed to get 2.5 days of leave!! -- that's like working half the wk only... Most imptly, I managed to get fri off and attended Yun's grad! I mean it's like fri is the last day of the wk, it's the day to close everything... But i found favour... My friend volunteered to do it for me! It's really volunteered... I didnt even ask her lo... God is great...

Then in nursery, I got my helper to stand in for me... No worries, she's vey capable!!! Hee... And my 2nd helper will be ard too...

In my family... I guess I got to just trust God to protect my family... Since God can provide for me... I have no doubts that He can protect my family while I'm out in the missions serving Him... Gos will give my dad quick recovery!!! AMEN!!! Yeah. Keep praying also k?

Only other thing is CG... God I pray that you can increase everyone's capacity. Holy Spirit, be with them to guide them in everything they do. I pray for stronger love in the cg, let everyone look out for one another's needs. Thank you Lord for growing this CG and keeping everyone safe and healthy. Amen! :o)

Ken was just talking to me the other day... He asked me...
Is the CG supportive of us going to the missions?

Wat do u think? Ask urself 'Do you love the ppl Jesus died for? The ppl who you may never meet? Can we believe that the CG will be alright and growing while we're away?'

I guess we got to increase our faith in God and in our members...

Attending to my dad?

My dad... My dad went for an operation on Mon... Some of you may already know this... He could not lift his left hand due to an injury in his left shoulder... So he went for an op on mon... I'm not sure what the doctors did... But heard it's those kind where u insert camera in to do the op one... The op went smoothly... He was supposed to be discharged on Wed, but on tues, the doc says he can go hm to rest liao... Yep yep...

So on mon nite when I went... It was after visitation hours liao... Reached abt 9pm... Met my mom at the bus stop... She went hm 1st cos she workin in the early morn the next day. So I went into his ward and he was sleeping liao... Not wanting to wake him up, I just sat on the chair beside him. I laid my hands on his bad and prayed silently... For peace, for a good nite's rest, for quick recovery and for no pain... Then he stirred and woke... Talked to me for a while. He said he was alright, I didnt had to come down... Then he showed me that the bed was stained cos of his blood... He lost quite a bit of blood... Kept reassuring me that he was alright, just a little giddy... I just told him to go back to sleep and I'll be going back soon...

On Tues, I went to visit him after I completed my work for the day and so took time off to go... When I reached at 2+, I was quite surprised to see him sitting there, dressed in civilian. He told me he was ready to go home, the doctor had given him 44 days of hospitalisation leave... He was waiting for the medicine to come... Waited since 1pm... Ken rushed down to see him b4 we left... Bought him chicken of essence... I went back with my dad in a cab... Ken went off elsewhere to settle his stuff... My sis was home liao... Shortly after my mom came back... So she took care of him...

Today, I took leave also... Stayed home to attend to my dad... Just in case he needs anything. His sister, my gu gu came to visit him... So they chatting now... The op lasted 4 hours... And so on... Hahaha... I go listen liao....

For the past few days...

In the past few days... Lots of things have happened... We packed up nursery on Sun to move back to Hall 8... Then met up a few ppl at airport for lunch and to fellowship... Went shopping and waited for Ken to go back... Went to work on mon, then dinner with Ken then BS with na and Zhixing then went hospital to visit my dad. Tue went work, took half day then visited my dad and brought him home, went for a run and talked to a few members... Lots of things just went through my head during this period of time.

Quite a lot of ppl were involved in the packing... As a result, there were not so much work to be done... Cos everything was done up in a relatively short time. So some ppl just stood around waiting(on-lookers), some ppl went to see if other rooms need help (I'm going to make myself useful), some ppl just volunteered to help in ways they find would help me speed up the process (Whatever it takes to help the IC)... At the end of the day, we decided... Too many cooks spoil the broth... Maybe we can rotate the IC? Let the helpers do the job? Hahaha....

Then went shopping... Spent 60+... Heh... Bought lots of socks!!! Hahaha... 8 pairs... Opps... Sale ma... :p And lots of other things too...

Work was ok, quite free actually... :p Cos they havent figured out what's outstanding... I just wait lo... Hahaha... Cos the things they talk abt is high level one, I cant understand yet... So I wait...

Then went for dinner, ate dou hua.. Finally I got to eat it.... After almost a week of craving for it... Almost went mad waiting to eat it.... Heheee....

Then BS... Yeah... BK @ Raffles City... I felt I was shouting to them... The ppl ard so bu zhi dong, talk so loudly... Hahaha... I need to find another place man... But it was good, felt so encouraged by them... Cos they said Yes, read the verses loudly and looked up at me when I shared... I hope they leant something... :)

Then on the way back went hospital to visit my dad... He underwent an op... I'll share more of this in the next entry... This one getting a bit long...

Then called up a few ppl to chat and on MSN also... I really think that if you wanna do greater things for God, you got to remain humble. In everything that you do, give it ur best shot. Be detailed, be urgent... Remain teachable... You have your reasons for not doing things which others may not know but sometimes you got to reflect... Why would someone make such a coment? Instead of defending yourself straight away... If after reflecting, you think the comment is not justified, you can always talk to the person again... :)

Some ppl are quick to receive advice, some are not... But who is more teachable? Time will tell...

Nike says 'Just do it', I say 'I did it!'

Hahaha.... I finally did it... After a few days... Hmmmm... Ok, ok... After a few months of procrastination... I ran today!!! I wasnt as good liao... So sad... Ran only abt 1.5km then started to walk... Haiz... Last time I could run at least 2 km b4 i really needed to stop...

But at least I got started... So proud of myself... Hahaha... Was talking to yuanxing just now... Then wanted to jio him to run... But he not free... He asked when I going... I told him when the sun not so hot... At 1830, he saw me on MSN... He asked... Still havent go? Haiz.... Bei fa xian le... Then ken called... You wanna meet? Then I was like 'hmmm.... should i?' Then I decided I got to run... I turned him down and told him I going to run... These were pushing me to go...

Finally, I took out my socks, wore them and did some warm up and wore my shoes... Opened the door and down I went... Across the road, back to the running track. And started my run... Did 30 sit-ups on the way also... Yeah! I did it... Alone!!! Nobody was encouraging me to go on... But the motivation came from inside...

During the run, I was reminded of verses to keep going... The joy of the Lord is my strength. God will not give me something that I cannot overcome. This is not too difficult, God is beside me. God is running with me now. God leads me beside still waters... (I was running beside a canal...) And the thoughts of God just filled my own mind... Think it was really a run where it's between me and God only... I didnt bring anything out, no distractions... A time totally devoted to God...

Think I should go running more... Wat abt you? Time to get those dusty sports shoes out and RUN!!!

Next wk this time

Wow!!! Time flies!!! Next wk this time, I'll be in taipei looking for the KDM Hotel Taipei... It's so exciting!!! I'm going to be flying off soon! Yeah...

Praise the LORD!!!

Thank God that my friend came today... After praying for half a yr... God answers prayers!!! Dun gif up... Your friend might come next wk!!! Hold fast and believe... :)

You think you know me well? Take the quiz too...

Haha... it's the season of testing huh? How much your friends know you... So I also did one...

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=060630050648-117097&

Are you friendly?

Just came back from bible study from YMCA... Had an interesting ride back... Sat beside a lady from another church... She saw that I was reading the chinese bible so started to talk to me. Share with me abt her church and stuff... I just shared a bit... Think from orchard to jurong, she talked 40 min, I talked only 10 min... But interesting la, got to know more abt her church... That one in Punggol area...

Hmmmm, I have an ex-classmate from there... Totally changed person after she started attending that church... No doubt she has become more self-assured, more confident. But the fact that she went for water baptism w/o her parents knowledge is something I cannot accept... I mean water baptism is a declaration that we now belong to God, to declare our faith in Him. And your parents dunno abt it?! Then how are you declaring your faith to the world?

Then I also remembered... There was once I was waiting for Ken at the Clementi bus stop... An undergrad from NUS came to chat with me also... And guess wat? She was also from that church... Hmmm... According to the lady on the bus, they dun really do street witnessing... But just chat with the ppl they meet on the bus, bus stop, restaurant, etc... Isnt that street witnessing? Or just being friendly... Hee...

After I alighted from the bus... I kept asking myself... Why did God arrange for me to meet such a person? I look at myself and the ppl ard me... Are we friendly ppl? Are we easy to talk to? Why are we talking to the ppl? So that we will not be scolded later on? To fulfil religious duty?

I feel so frustrated... Why do ppl act out of fear? Why do ppl talk cos fearing the consequences of not talking? I felt that the Lord just told me... You just got to be friendly and share... I'm not very comfortable with sharing things with a stranger I meet on the street... But surely there'll be some things that I can share with my friend's friend rite? And I really really just wanna get to know the person... To be his friend too... Talking for the sake of talking will lead to nowhere in a conversation...

In order to hold a conversation, you need a lot of factors... This is an art... No theory, no lesson... And it's impt to be knowledgable... So read!!! And have a life!!! Go and experience things for yourself, so that you can share... And getting the person to respond is another skill to learn... Not to make the person talk... Like force him into a situation where he muz respond... But be able to engage him so that he just wanna share... That's the best...

Just reminded that I too have to be friendly... I wanna have friends, genuine friends who will stick with me, be with me... And I wanna win souls... But, this muz come with relationship that has been built up... Being the influencer in a friendship... Love your neighbours as yourself... I dun wan my close friends to perish... So I wanna them to come!!! Give God a chance and give themselves a chance...

The bible says,
'A man who has friends must himself be friendly' ~ Pro 18:24a...
Be friendly!!! Smile. And invite.

P/S: Must pray for them 1st then do the inviting... You move, God move... And the Holy Spirit convicts... We work in partnership... It's nt an OMO...